Showing posts with label employment. Show all posts
Showing posts with label employment. Show all posts

02 June, 2022

the friends I've had to bury, they keep me up at night

So, at what point do I just give in and admit I work for a lesbian club now?

just-another-Thursday

Maybe it's just that where I work is no longer a draw for anyone but...women. And I'm just not good at targeting them, because while I adore women, in my fifteen years of adult experience on the grid, they don't pay. Flat out. I can still count my female clients on one hand, in all that time, and have fingers left over.

Or this is depression talking, but...one way or another, the all-girl brigade is getting old. Especially as it's not just women, but women who are specifically drawn to women and MAKE THAT PLAIN IN MAIN CHAT, and...that's getting old, too.

Maybe it's finally time to move on.

20 June, 2020

where enough is not the same it was before

Chill fire
"I scare myself with the way that I need you
there's no one else, tell me that you can feel it too
I'd crawl through hell if it meant that I could keep you
I scare myself, I come unraveled..."
There are a great many moments where I pause and wonder: am I on the right path? Or, perhaps more succinctly--am I on the path I need to be on? Because right or wrong, it always comes back to that.

It's not that I won't make mistakes. I make a great many mistakes. It's that I want to be sure they're mine to make, that I take full responsibility both for my failures, and my successes.

Through the flames
"let the revels begin, let the fire be started
we're dancing for the restless and the broken-hearted..."
Everyone has their own tragedy. Some of us are given them, some of us write our own. I think I've done both at various times. And perhaps the writing never stopped.

Raising the light
"from the light on high, a chance to change your fate
forgiveness falling down on those who chose to wait
remember the time, find yourself home again..."
I know where home is. I have the star to my wandering bark. It took me a while to find north, but I know which way to go. Or...I know where I need to end up, but there is some question as to how best to get there.

We all float here

There is always another path. There is always another choice. We just may not like the choices we're given.
"things are getting weirder at the speed of light
nightmare girl
all this fever dreaming kills my appetite
for love and restless nights--"
At least the nightmares have leveled off, that's something. The hallucinations, well, I may always have those, but the nightmares have moved on from their wetly-worn ruts through the grey matter.

More of fire than of feeling

"I lust for after no disaster can touch
touch us anymore
and more than ever, we hope to never fall
where enough is not the same it was before..."

I've told this story before. I'm tired of it. It's all treading water, and I want to walk on land. Which is not how the analogy usually goes, but...when have I ever been predictable? At least in that way.

Piano by the shore

"take your head around the world
and see what you get, from your mind
write your soul down word for word
see who's your friend, and who is kind...

well, it's almost like a disease..."
Change is coming. Change must come. The center cannot hold. I cast the lantern back and forth, peering through the shadows. The path will become clear, but it may mean upending large parts of my life. And maybe it's time for that.

I've grown content with the strictures I've chosen. A large part of me wants to remain in stasis, but...things must change. And sometimes, pain comes before the blossoming. It's the way of life, after all.

A window opens, a door closes...but doors can be reopened. It's what they are. after all. We just have to be prepared for what's on the other side.

(Lyrics used: Beth Crowley, 'I Scare Myself'; Remy Zero, 'Prophecy'; Ellen Aim and the Attackers, 'Tonight Is What It Means to Be Young'; Aimee Mann, 'Nightmare Girl'; Poets of the Fall, 'Carnival of Rust'; and Matchbox Twenty's 'You Won't Be Mine'.)

(Also, where I went to take these. In order: Joker's Carnival of Carnage [NSFW, and PLEASE read the note that follows at the end before going!], Forest in the Sky [Adult], Hauntings at Old Town W, Cloud's Freak Show, another shot from Joker's Carnival, and finally, Der Spooky Haunted Halloween Island [which has a default beam-in point, but since the sim is underwater, and no flying is permitted, this is how you get directly to the turtle with the piano. Yes, I said turtle].)

(THAT ADDITIONAL NOTE: Joker's Carnival is a r*pe/capture sim, VERY NSFW, with a penchant for harming, mutilating, and ending male victims. Be warned--they want your blood, and...more. [Me they left alone, go figure. sarcastic-winky-face ])


19 January, 2020

every time you turn around you wear another face

Why are people still reading old blog entries of mine? No clue, but someone did, so I looked into their contribution, and added it to the, so far, sole autism page on this entire blog. Yay?

In the meantime, this was mildly amusing. I got this error searching for a link on Marketplace:

internal-server-error-read

So I copied that string of numbers and searched for it:

google-not-found

And we have Numberwang! Seriously, Google gave me the error number, and now they can't find that error? Are you feeling okay, Google? Need a bit of a lie-down, or a spot of tea?

Meanwhile, a bit of chat nonsense:
[21:43] txxxxxxxxx Rxxxxxxx: [paid job] looking for asian/latina/ebony girls doing lingerie modeling pictures for Elle et Lui Modeling Magazine 2020 spring lingerie special edition. (pls contact me if you are interested, thanks.)
Now, a note. This is our spammer. I am leaving his name out, but the "magazine" he supposedly works for in, because if they don't know he's going around to dozens of groups and spamming them with unwanted "paid job" requests, then they should, and at the very least, slap his hand for doing so.
[21:43] Dxxxxxx Sxxxxxxx: ewwwwwww
[21:44] Exxxx Vxxx: he is still on tour with that xD
[21:44] Dxxxxxx Sxxxxxxx: yep highly doubtful and very suspect
[21:44] cxxxxxxxxxxxxx Rxxxxxxx: Scam again... Before happened at Fameshed group... :(
Yeah, he's been quite the busy little bee. Join ten groups, spam ten groups, leave ten groups. Rinse, repeat, burn.
[21:44] gxxxxxxxxx Rxxxxxxx: are there any active modeling agency even on sl anymore?
There are, actually. It's not as wide ranging a field as it was, but there are still active agencies. There's one agency that Zibska exclusively works with, or that agency exclusively works for Zibska, one of those. And there are a few others.
[21:44] Exxxx Vxxx: he does that post over and over in many groups...
[21:46] pxxxxxxxxxxxx Rxxxxxxx: what happened at Fameshed?
[21:47] cxxxxxxxxxxxxx Rxxxxxxx: The same scam... a group scam tour... oO
[21:48] pxxxxxxxxxxxx Rxxxxxxx: no but like what is the scam
[21:49] pxxxxxxxxxxxx Rxxxxxxx: did he not pay the models or smth?
To be fair, I don't think anyone's been stupid enough to contact him, so I'm not sure. But from his scattershot bursts of advertising, I'd say, likely not a paid gig, likely not a real job, possibly looking for a porn shoot. I have nothing against virtual pornography, but seriously, dude, advertise in the proper groups at least.

07 March, 2014

dislocated, suffocated



So, homeless again for a bit. It won't last, it's just a matter of searching for or freelancing for enough Lindens, and spending time searching for a new home base, but...it's always a sad thing. What makes me saddest about this is not actually the having to leave. It was the why.

For several months now--since my income seems to be oddly variable--I've had an agreement with a love. She exchanges her work at an estate--and no, not identifying which one--for the plot that she uses, and the plot that I use. (I moved to a smaller place when we struck this arrangement, and when I was flush, I paid her rent, so it wasn't entirely one-sided.)

Over the run of everyday life on SL, they had to downside, so she went from being an estate manager to being a land office clerk--a significant downgrade in both income and responsibility. Still, she understood, and life went on. At least, until they stopped paying her.

In general--and both in RL and SL--my love takes a particular approach to employment, one echoed by Captain Mal Reynolds: she works in exchange for Lindens, the key point being exchange. That's the transaction, that's what she signs up to do. She's a very loyal worker, and she works hard, but she insists on the formalities: she does the job. And then she gets paid.

And three weeks ago, this estate stopped paying her.

At first--the first week--she sent friendly IMs, asking her employers to resolve the situation. Obviously it slipped their minds, it happens. No hard feelings. But then she hit week two, and what was worse, they'd stopped talking at that point--and not just to her, but to their other estate managers, and to their customers.

We still don't know what's going on with this formerly functional estate, but she's now at week three. And over the course of one day of talking, we went from "you need to try and ask them what's going on" to "maybe you need to leave". Because they're not paying her; they're not talking to her; they're not updating their webpage listings (for example, four listings today she found that were open and available on the website, that had been rented in world--some for months) for their estate. So...why is she staying? It was a damned good question.

So she made the decision to leave. And then everything happened very quickly, for the first time. In the space of three hours, she'd informed her employers, I'd taken back what was mine in my skybox, she'd taken back what was hers in hers...and both of us suddenly had no homes.

Well. That was abrupt.

Okay. Tomorrow, back to work, and we see where I go from here.

12 November, 2012

my feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights

While this is far from my usual style, with the Hostess union strike well underway--and looking like Hostess seems likelier to close up shop than pay its debtors honestly (most of whom, also honesty, are the pensioners who will be shorted devastatingly for their decades of service to the company)--I've had a couple friends bemoan the loss of Hostess products.

I'm not a sugar junkie, but I've been trying to track down homemade alternatives, or similar products, for those who may find themselves in need.
  • Homemade banana snack cakes
  • Homemade Butterscotch Krimpets
  • Homemade Chocodiles
  • Homemade chocolate Swiss Rolls
  • Homemade Devil Dogs
  • Homemade Ding-Dongs
  • Making your own Donettes can be tricky, but if you're in a part of the world that has Entenmann's baked goods, you can find a comparable prefab donut. There are also some good, (relatively) easy donut hole recipes, in chocolate and plain cake--here's a deep-fried cake variant, and here's a fancier baked cake variant. And here's one that omits frying entirely, choosing to bake them in muffin tins instead. You get UFO-shaped things that are closer to zeppoles over hole-in-the-middle donuts, but seriously, are you going to care?
  • Homemade fruit pies have their own section, because I found so damned many. So see below.
  • Homemade Ho-Hos
  • Made-from-mix honey bun cakes
  • Homemade Peanut butter 'Kandy Kakes'
  • Homemade Raspberry Zingers
  • Homemade Sno-Balls are a little tricky--so here's a complex version, here's one that seems simpler, but requires an icing tube for the marshmallow frosting, and this one changes things up a bit and involves a small amount of espresso powder (which was so bizarre as an ingredient, I had to look it up. Basically, anywhere you can use espresso powder, you can just use vanilla instead--cooks use it primarily as a flavor punch for chocolate and cocoa, not for any specific coffee flavor.)
  • Homemade Susie-Qs
  • Homemade Twinkies
  • Homemade Zebra cakes
Now then! The hand pie section! I've included mostly sweet, but a few savory (because I'm a Cornish pastie fan, can't help it):
Hope that helps.

And for more fun, make your own Pop-tarts.

06 November, 2011

twine your vines around me, drop your branches in my path

CoolVL is finally taking its first baby steps towards independent branding, as described here. It's actually a much easier install, now; both the mesh and non-mesh branches are now stable releases; and I just went in and wandered about a bit, and it doesn't seem like there are any major visual changes. It's just easier to use and easier to download. Not too bad, Mr. Beauchamp.

In tech news, there's now a process in the process of being patented that could permanently change eye color. Right now the process only works--and only for a select few cases--for changing brown eyes to blue--or, more precisely, burning out all melanin to result in a pale blue iris.

The process itself doesn't worry me, though I admit to being slightly unnerved about lasers burning anything out of my eye--but what does worry me is I can't shake the feeling that this was an invention without a direct need, until Lashisse--oh, excuse me, Latisse--came along. With so many women using Latisse and having their eyes turn brown...this was bound to happen, right?

In the meantime, office supplies porn. (Sadly, some of the best ones are no longer available.) I bring you:
  • the wooden block memoblock (no longer available)
  • the balding memo pad (from Pantogar, a Chinese hair-restoring company, available only as a giveaway through Hong Kong and Taiwan)
  • the memo spa (note: that's the case price; the individual price is supposedly lower, but the company website isn't coming up at present)
  • gingko and leaf-shaped "Leaf-It" memo notes (they're also priced on the high side, and based on the note at the bottom, dated 2010, may no longer be available)
  • and floppy disc shaped memo pads (now available in colors!)
In gaming news, I can't imagine why anyone would want to actually play Saints' Row, but at least one fellow of my acquaintance has it on pre-order and is eagerly awaiting the delivery date. (And we both agree, Stiv really needs a game in which a "dildo bat" is an actual weapon.)

Both those links, btw? Not safe for work. NOOOOT safe for work. Just so you know.

Continuing (sorta) in the NSFW vein, an article on Kotaku takes on just how hard it is to overcome scandal in Japan. Far harder than in the west (unless you're Britney Spears), any hint of scandal seems to taint nigh irrevocably voice actresses--who aren't, overwhelmingly, known for their faces or bodies in the first place! Still, it's not a tale without something of a happy ending--one of the biggest scandals nearly took Yuko Miyamura down, yet she's still working in the voice acting industry, and even showed up in at least one live-action film. (In the end, she triumphed...sort of...but she's still not at the level she was, and she'll never be there again. In Japan, apparently, scandal never fully leaves.)

Meanwhile, one of Sweden's largest game conventions, Gamex, tried to get the Piratpartiet to attend for a few months before the convention...then, mysteriously, a week before Gamex was scheduled to start, they were told they weren't welcome and to not attend.

For anyone who doesn't know, Piratpartiet--the "Pirate Party"--is a political organization based in Sweden but working in both Sweden and the European Union at large; their goals are primarily reform of copyright law and abolishing the patent system. I don't agree with their goals, but they seem earnest and definitely not advocates of violence or severe political unrest. How'ver, I am with the article's author, when he asked why they'd been invited to Gamex in the first place--and even listed as a sponsor on the banner?

In the graphic novel, From Hell, written by Alan Moore, he posits that the "true" Jack the Ripper was in actuality Sir William Gull. This is one theory in a morass of theories that abound as to who, actually, committed the murders, and for what reason.

Now another contender has stepped forward, with an interesting piece of evidence--the great-great-great-great nephew of Sir John Williams (known to his family at the time as "Uncle Jack") discovered a black-handled surgeon's knife that he believes to be the murder weapon of Jack the Ripper. He's now published a book with his conclusions.

And Simon Pegg may be moving soon. That is all.

17 February, 2011

fun, fun, fun, in the sun, sun, sun

This from one of my groups:
LL is goign to be [switching] the blogs, forums, KB, and resident answers to the same system Best Buy got in trouble for using to track customers social media ussage. Additionally they are putting mandatory widgets on every post/coment you make. To try and get LL to make these opt in only please comment and watch https://jira.secondlife.com/browse/WEB-3667.
Okay, let me break all this down. Best Buy has a reputation for being a big box store with poorly-trained clerks and owners that have no clue what they're doing. Part of this, of course, is due to their buy-out of Geek Squad (owned by a group of geeks who genuinely cared about computer repair) and subsequent replacement of all staff with clerks who, in some cases, didn't even own computers in the first place. But that was just strike one.

Strike two happened back in 2009 when they used the same (or at least a very similar) system to try to pervert purely social media streams into 24/7 advertising for themselves that would raise sales.

Short version: they failed. Slightly less short version: they failed because people didn't like ads where they didn't want them (aka, chatting with their friends on Facebook or Twitter), and resented Best Buy's assertion that they "understood social media" while at the same time responding to precisely none of the pleas for help they received from customers who used social media and were complaining about Best Buy's abysmal service. As a subsequent result, those customers moved away from Best Buy to other (online as well as offline) retailers. Best Buy sales suffered tremendously as a result (though they've picked up by 61% in the last quarter of 2010. Of course, at least part of those profits were a result of corporate share buybacks...).

Same system, different company, and there is more than a little sharp taste of irony here, because when comparing Best Buy's languid, disparate customer service with Linden Labs' customer service, Best Buy actually looks like a customer that really, really listens...so having the same system pop up that failed with Best Buy as the Lindens' Next Big Thing?

Well, one, it should surprise none of us, and two, I think it ties very much into the previous JIRA I've been mentioning (now closed), with admittedly, about as much success in getting the Lindens to actually change their minds.

[02:20 AM] Turley Hallenbook is thinking, my Doctor is always asking me, if I am hearing any voices, now I'll have something different to tell him :)
[02:20 AM] Alexx McLaglen: lol
[02:22 AM] Turley Hallenbook: wonders if there is anyone brave enough to assist in if they can hear them too?
[02:22 AM] Turley Hallenbook: Or perhaps it is just me, myself and I
[02:22 AM] Alexx McLaglen: try to tp me, if you want, Ms H
[02:27 AM] Precipitate Flood: A tp? http://slurl.com/secondlife/Pacific%20Dreamz%20Lagoons/36/174/23 - it may get you away from the voices, if nothing else.
[02:28 AM] Garnet Psaltery: Good morning. What is the SLURL for, please?
[02:29 AM] Turley Hallenbook: oh, no, I believe it ate, Miss Alexx!!!
[02:29 AM] Turley Hallenbook: no here she comes :)
[02:29 AM] Precipitate Flood: Turley was complaining about hearing voices - a change of scene may help, or so I thought
[02:30 AM] Garnet Psaltery: Ah, how considerate of you :o)
[02:41 AM] Turley Hallenbook: oh my
[02:41 AM] Turley Hallenbook: it is so very loud now
[02:41 AM] Turley Hallenbook: and I have a witness ;)
[02:42 AM] Turley Hallenbook: But I don't know what happened to Miss Alexx


There is a haunt on the loose in one of the Caledon sims.

[02:47 AM] Turley Hallenbook: There is someone here with me, thank goodness
[02:48 AM] Turley Hallenbook: but can't find the location exactly the voice is, have narrowed it down to Miss Ouna's house
[02:49 AM] Turley Hallenbook: they hear it also
[02:49 AM] Emilly Orr: It might be that her parcel is set to play sounds beyond her parcel.
[02:50 AM] Turley Hallenbook: no matter, this sounds like a Ghost or Demon or maybe the Devil
[02:50 AM] Emilly Orr: Still could be sounds playing beyond her parcel.
[02:50 AM] Emilly Orr: Unless her parcel's haunted...
[02:51 AM] Turley Hallenbook: I believe it is, Miss Emilly
[02:51 AM] Turley Hallenbook: Has to be
[02:51 AM] Emilly Orr: That's not good.
[02:52 AM] Turley Hallenbook: someone should tell her and help her
[02:52 AM] Turley Hallenbook: I hope she hasn't been living with this, in fear of telling anyone


One does ponder the effectiveness of pixelated demons, or at least, when that one is me. This, plus reports of the ghost ship last summer...could be Caledon needs its own version of the Ghostbusters.

But we move on.

Share in the dinosaur love. Even if you don't like the Nostalgia Critic, or worse, don't know who he is, it is a hysterical joy to watch him dissect The Lost World: Jurassic Park. There's even a brief segment on how to properly do a Jeff Goldblum impersonation!

Lastly...with much trepidation, and not a little sick dread, I have downloaded the Phoenix viewer (build 1.5.2.908, to be precise). Two women I trust have either told me it's reliable, or demonstrated proof that it's reliable, and I am having an insane amount of difficulty dealing with Imprudence at this time.

Case in point: every single time over the past eight weeks I have logged in to SL, this is what happens:

1. Log in.
2. Notice "Loading", sigh, clear cache, and log out.
3. Log in and clear cache and log out again.
4. Log in, take a teleport, and crash.
5. Curse Imprudence, log in, clear cache, log out.
6. Log in again and wait half an hour for my inventory to load.

This was bad enough when I was just a sales clerk, but now that I'm an estate manager it's an incredible time sink, and it's beyond frustrating that it happens every. single. damned. time.

It is far from a secret that I feel as if the people behind Phoenix, and Emerald behind them, did the grid a great disservice and injustice. I do not trust them. I do not trust their viewers, I do not trust the people coding their viewers, I do not trust that the Lindens worked with some of them earlier and then turned on them for what may have been entirely separate issues. I do not trust anyone involved with either project.

And it doesn't help that I feel as if I'm jumping into the shark tank after having slashed open veins in my thighs with broken glass, but...I also feel I have zero alternatives. I won't use viewer 2 unless it's that or leave SL...and at that point, I will likely leave SL...but also, Imprudence has completely lost all effectiveness (in my opinion).

So...bring on the sharks. We'll see how it goes.

15 July, 2010

you've got to wake up and get a hold of yourself

I know why I found this sign in Sexy Sadie:

child avatars,wtf,Solace Beach,adult

Sexy Sadie's an adult sim in Solace Beach. I totally understand why Ayesha Lytton would want to ban kids from her all-adult lands.

What I can't figure out is why any child avatar--regardless of the adult behind it behind the screen--would want to come to an Adult-rated sim. I thought the whole point was to frolic in a Second childhood, or something.

Second Life,Cerridwen's Cauldron

Cerridwen's Cauldron. Save for the avatars, I haven't figured out how to buy a single thing. But it's a lovely, lovely place. The flowers make you sleepy, though.

On the plus side, you could just go and wander around the sim. Then--and I'll deny I said this, should anyone ask--go peruse the offerings on XStreet.

Second Life,Solace Beach,virtual worlds

[0:16] Fawkes Allen: This corner of the sim.
[0:16] Fawkes Allen: It's impossible.

[0:16] Emilly Orr: TELL me about it.
[0:16] Emilly Orr: I was contemplating getting some big rocks. :p


Second Life,Solace Beach,virtual worlds

[0:16] Fawkes Allen: This is bad
[0:16] Fawkes Allen: I'm off the sim

[0:16] Emilly Orr: Yeah.
[0:17] Emilly Orr: This is the evil corner of Simly DOOOOM


Second Life,Solace Beach,virtual worlds

[0:17] Emilly Orr: Also, you can fall under the .raw file
[0:17] Emilly Orr: Because I did

[0:17] Fawkes Allen: No love.
[0:17] Fawkes Allen: YOU can fall under the .raw file.
[0:17] Fawkes Allen: But you have Mutant powah.

[0:17] Emilly Orr: Ah.
[0:17] Emilly Orr: That? Is a power I would gladly give up.


Ah, well; at least it's not happening to everyone? Though really, I can't be the only av on the grid who can fall through...well...anything...

I was told, for the last two sims in the project, to only pave where there are existing sidewalks already. Which does save some time figuring out how to pave along the sim edges. Though I may still mess with it a bit, because...really, I know it's the sim edge, and all, but...it's just so empty under there!

16 June, 2010

I am still unidentified

Another good question from Alicia Chenaux for the Big Bad Blogger Challenge:

SL Bloggers - Is your avatar more or less your current biological age? Do you portray a younger avatar, or older? Why is this?

This is actually an interesting question. When I first started in SL, I was in a standard avatar and had no real plans on age in the least. Then I became a stripper at the Enigma, and to my mind, I wanted to portray someone who had a little polish from experience, but not a large amount. Far enough from eighteen to be believable, but not too far to put gentlemen off who might want to tip.

I picked 23 as a good, stable age, and--at least officially--that was my age. It went into my escort bio, when I started escorting, and I did my best to 'play young'. Perhaps I did too good a job, because my first few years on SL saw me making all the same mistakes I did at 22.

In order.

It was somewhat maddening.

But since then, all I've altered is my behavior; when I stopped escorting, I stopped playing deliberately younger, but I never changed my look. Or, well, I changed my look nearly every day, I am a shapeshifter after all.

But SL is curiously ageless in this way; if we want to appear older, we have to find one of perhaps three skin designers who have made elder skins. Miss sachi Vixen is the person I always mention, but truthfully, there's not a lot of call for it. Everyone wants to look younger than they are, they say; the problem is, I look younger than I want to in real life, so why would I want to look younger in SL?

I think that's one reason I still get so upset when someone calls an avatar I'm in a child; outside of one specifically child-shaped, child-sized avatar--whom no one ever sees--everyone else I am is adult. I may be short--and, as SL spins on, growing shorter--but I am not a child.

15 June, 2010

home, is this the quiet place where you should be alone?

The Second Big Bad Blogger Challenge post:

SL Bloggers - Write about three positive things going on in your Second Life.

RL Bloggers - Write about three positive things going on in your life.


I'm taking both of these, because it's never a bad thing to think of the positive things in any life.

So, three positive things going on in SL just now:

1. I got accepted to Operation Squeegee as a merchant. I have a couple ideas on things to do, and I have until the 1st of July to get them done. So it gives me a little time, and making new things is always a positive thing for me.

2. I have a new job. Finally, after months of not being able to pay rent on my parcels, I can pay rent on my parcels on my own, without help. This is a tremendous weight off my mind. Plus, I really like the people I'm working for--they are a smart, committed bunch of men and women who just want to enjoy good music and relaxing sims, with a lack of external drama. I'm all for that. I'm happy to be working for them.

3. I love my island in Winterfell. Luctus Isle is beautiful, and it feels very insular; it's got a small space to sleep, a place to write, a firepit with places to lounge and think and enjoy the twilight, and it's heavily wooded, with both natural and artificial trees. I have a mortar and pestle to grind grains for gruel or beans for coffee and a small clothesline to air-dry laundry. And there are a few other oddities, tucked here and there...

And three positive things going on in RL just now:

1. We found a local source for Greek yogurt. (Why yes, we do live in the sticks...sort of.) I have decided I really, really like Greek yogurt, because it reminds me of homemade yogurt, back when we used to make it. (At one point, we made practically everything we ate--either grew it, or harvested it, or traded for it. Eggs [chickens, doves, quail and turkeys], lamb [traded for], rabbit [some traded for the lamb], half acre of vegetables of various types, half acre of fruit trees, grapevines in the back for homemade wine and herb garden around the side in terraced wooden beds...we put everything up for preserves, practically, and made root beer and kim chee and harvested squaw tea and made our own mustards...Sometimes, I still miss it.)

2. We have the equivalent of a mobile lending library in the common room of our new apartment building. While the fare is weighted heavily towards spy novels and archeological horror, I've started reading more than occasionally again. Of course, that means I'm back to inhaling books--when I get going, I tend to read a book in five hours, so...I'm glad there's so many to pick from downstairs? I just wish someone liked sf more than they seem to--though if my tastes were weighted more towards the theological and government conspiracy angles, I'd be set.

3. Finally, I'm catching up (this month and last) with all the Doctor Who episodes I've missed. I am a hardcore fan of Dr. Who, but without cable, there wasn't much I could do. Then the episodes were picked up on Netflix, but I didn't have the time, ironically enough--until now. And now it's been absolutely marvelous catching up, watching the Doctor, catching all the little references...absolute joy. And I adore Stephen Moffat as a writer.

Just to wrap up, friend of mine linked me to the APB trailer , and all I can think right now is "Huh...privileged white kids looooove their ethnic gang violence." Still, technologically speaking, the level of customization possible is just insane; everything from skin color to scars and tattoos on that skin, age, muscle tone (or lack thereof), clothing, shoes, hair, eyebrows, expression, nail polish...all very, very well done. And if you don't like the color of the base layer? Change it. Pattern it. Flip logos on it; the program will fade them, age them, add wrinkles and shading. Just...insane level of work on the character creator for APB.

No interest in playing it, mind, but the game looks stunning as hell, frankly.

09 June, 2010

and I can't really hear you through the thickening of fear

The new revised pastebin list (still UNconfirmed for the most part):

.Aimee Linden.Ali Linden.Anna Linden.Babbage Linden.Bacon Linden.Baron Linden
.Bernard Linden.BK Linden.Blue Linden.Brent Linden.Brodesky Linden.Byron Linden
.Callen Linden.Callumtester Linden.Carla Linden.Carmilla Linden.Cassandra Linden

Let me pause here and state there's almost a toxic level of irony in letting someone who named herself "Cassandra Linden" go...but we move on:

.CeeLo Linden.Chiyo Linden.Christy Linden.Claudia Linden.Cody Linden.Cogsworth Linden
.Coyot Linden.Crimp Linden.Cru Linden.Devnull Linden.DJ Linden.Donation Linden
.Doten Linden.Dough Linden.Dragon Linden.DreamsRoom Linden.Driscoll Linden.Drub Linden
.Edelman Linden.Eli Linden.Epic Linden.Esther Linden.Ferny Linden.Fredrik Linden
.Gayathri Linden.Gez Linden.Ghenghis Linden.Gino Linden.Gisele Linden.Grapes Linden
.Groundskeeper Linden.Harmony Linden.Helen Linden.Inoshiro Linden.Irie Linden.Itiaes Linden
.Ivan Linden.James Linden.Jarv Linden.Jerm Linden.Jay Linden.JessieAnn Linden
.Jules Linden.JP Linden.Karel Linden.Karina Linden.Katie Linden.Kazu Linden
.Kristi Linden.Ladan Linden.Lex Linden.Liana Linden.Listings Linden.LJ Linden
.Madison Linden.Mae Linden.Marketplace Linden.Meredith Linden.Mia Linden.Milton Linden
.Moderator Linden.MoleMart Linden.Molly Linden.Nelly Linden.Norm Linden.OnRezRefund Linden
.Pal Linden.Pastrami Linden.Periapse Linden.Pink Linden.Pixie Linden.Prep Linden
.Pup Linden.Rakesh Linden.Ray Linden.Removals Linden.Removals2 Linden.Removals3 Linden
.Removals4 Linden.Rhett Linden.Rika Linden.RodneyLinden.Rohit Linden.Rountree Linden
.Rudas Linden.Scobu Linden.Scott Linden.Scrubber Linden.SculptieRoom Linden.Sea Linden
.Sejong Linden.Siz Linden.Socratese Linden.Squid Linden.Squire Linden.Steffan Linden.
.Stone Linden.Storrs Linden.Tatem Linden.Teddy Linden.Theeba Linden.Thor Linden
.Tia Linden.Tiggs Linden.Timothee Linden.Tony Linden.Torres Linden.Twilight Linden
.Valerie Linden.Vicky Linden.Viddy Linden.Vogt Linden.Wallace Linden.Webb Linden
.William Linden.Wen Linden.Xandrix Linden.Xtreme Linden.Yamasaki Linden.Zero Linden

Now, what strikes me about this longer list? There's a lot of accounts there that seem "placeholder" accounts more than anything--the chain of "Removals" Lindens, f'rinstance, or the one linked to OnRez, say. That's not necessarily a bad sign; how'ver, most of these names are connected to people, people who are now scrambling for someone else to hire them.

Already battle signs are being seen around the grid: some folks are making plans to leave, some initial sales of goods are starting to be seen, though no 'GOING OUT OF BUSINESS 4EVAH" notes--yet. I do know Miss Ayesha Lytton is planning closures of at least five sims in the Solace Beach chain, and moving commercial and residential tenants to sims still grandfathered to the old pricing structures, to shore up and stabilize her business while we see if SL is sticking around--or not.

Des seems to think Caledon will remain strong and relatively unaffected; I'm willing to trust him on that, because he is the prime model of the business survivor, and--just as a business, let alone on any friendship level with anyone--he is willing to fight for what matters to him. I am not dismissing this as a bad motivation, mind--he keeps Caledon afloat, with or without SL around it, and he keeps his family afloat: his daughter gets to go to collage. His kids get to continue to eat. He gets to stay far away from the terrors of middle management.

Everyone else? Well, strap in, as Bettie Davis notably said--it's going to be a bumpy night.

07 June, 2010

I've tasted degradation and found the lace and candle light

Lord of the Rings Online just went free to play. This? This is HUGE. This will change the perception of F2P games, mayhap forever. At the very least, Richard Aihoshi speaks truth when he says LotRO making this move raises the bar for every free-stop-with-an-item-shop out there.

The Black & Blue Fair is back open for business, all land issues taken care of; I don't know if all one hundred and ten of the original merchants (barring those who dropped out, one would suppose) were contacted, but when I returned to check, it looked easily as cluttered as it did before. The exception? Now things rez faster. Yay for higher prim allotments.

Meanwhile, the Mobilitysite blog mentions Steve Jobs, Apple, and world takeovers, in a very pointed way: at what price power, the article asks, and at what cost advancement? That article mentions a dozen suicides; this one mentions eleven, of which two are purported to have survived, but also mentions a staggering amount of judicial bribery and lockdowns on employees who dare to speak, along with insane unwritten rules that, many times over for many employees, may well result in them owing the company supposed to be paying them to work there!

And Foxconn, make no mistake, is the world's largest manufacturer of electronic equipment for a whole host of different companies; so if you own many Apple products, anything made by Dell, motherboards that Hewlett-Packard uses (they have long since stopped making motherboards in-country), most Cisco networking and communication equipment...you're not even safe if you're just a gamer, and own a Wii, or an XBox 360, or a Playstation 3; Foxconn makes them too.

And there has been enough pressure on Foxconn employees, impressed heavily by the upper management, to meet the deadline for the next iPhone...well, answer's in the question, there, innit? It really was a deadline--produce...or die.

So how does this downline go? Consumer demand fuels redevelopment at Apple. Okay, pressure to improve, but that's how companies work, how they challenge themselves, how they increase demand and want through creative advertising and innovative designs presented to the end user. That's been the way of commerce for centuries, now.

Save that now, there's another downline, and that one goes straight through the heart of Apple. What did Apple say to Foxconn to create this pressure-cooker environment in Taiwan and China, to motivate more people than the national population of Guyana into becoming stressed enough to think, Well, I could go to work, or...hey, I could KILL myself...

The sad thing in all of this? And believe me, the fact that people are less important than product, and have been for more than five centuries, now, does register...is that even with the pressure, even with Foxconn deliberately obfuscating exactly how many died, and where, beyond Sun Danyong, is that they're still below the Chinese national average for suicide.

On the Foxconn campuses, in the dormitories, where people are housed twelve to a single room--even if we accept the lower figures of four people dying, that would work out to almost forty-eight people a year, per every 300,000 people--and this is on average, not exact, mind; assuming this level of stress on their workers keeps going. But even so, the average statistic for people that work at other corporations, people in government, people still in school, people farming, people harvesting...all Chinese, mainland or Taiwanese alike, everywhere...Foxconn's figures in this light are well below the estimated national average of over four hundred per year that other sources have quoted. The hell? Is life in China truly that bleak?

Well, apparently, at least if you're a Foxconn employee, it is.

(And that doesn't take into account other high-stress crushing-work-ethic places like Japan, f'rinstance, where the national average is pushing three thousand per year.)

It remains to be seen what action, if any, Apple Inc. and Steve Jobs will take to address this staggering violation of human rights, at least partially at their behest. All I do know is that world attention is on Foxconn now; it may not help, but at least social disapproval still works, in some cases, and it may well allow some improvement of work situations.

I'm hoping, at the least, for no more suicides, but...it's a hard world. And it's even harder when you're undereducated, docked for socializing, missing meals because you don't want to be late, working up to eighty hours per week in overtime, and on occasion raped and beaten because your supervisors were bored.

Yeah, that'd make me want to kill myself too, if I had to face that for work conditions...day after day...week after week...and be docked pay for getting sick, collapsing from fatigue, mourning every time I lost a friend, or for saying no any time a supervisor took a shine to me...

Just remember: Apple's different. Apple's not like Microsoft. They do things in better ways.

On the backs of hundreds of thousands of Chinese working women who are so desperate for any kind of financial pay they would risk this to have money to send home to help out their familes. It breaks down, by the way, to about 900 yuan per month. This puts each worker, on average, midway between a chambermaid and a garment cutter, per recent salary averages--in 2005. Seems Foxconn is a bit behind the curve, country-wide.

So much for innovation.

[Note from the Editrix: In the day or so it took me to cobble this story together, Steve Jobs appeared at the conference, and apparently stated that Apple would ensure that Foxconn toed the line in providing safer working conditions for their employees. Foxconn retaliated by saying they would raise minimum wage for their workers by 10% in July, with more gradual pay raises to come, but said that this would result in higher prices passed on to those companies which bought from them.

[In the meantime, I've been able to find nothing in live feed coverage that mentions Jobs even saying "Wau, we didn't know. We're gonna crack down on them." I did find this mention by CNET which goes into exactly what Jobs said on the tech end of things...it's long, but there's a ton of good crunchy information on Apple developments. But Apple mentions of Foxconn? Couldn't find them...at least, not yet.

[I would point out a notable quote from the Foxconn pay raise story, though: "Hon Hai said the Company may transfer part of the financial burden brought by the salary increase to its customers, but it will take several months to judge the net cost of this move. The Company comments, 'The salary increase will bring extra cost, but will also improve the work efficiency, for it will reduce the staff wastage rate.'"

["Staff wastage" in this regard? Is a thinly veiled euphemism. What Hon Hai spokespeople actually mean? "We're going to pay them more, so they'll feel less pressured, and die less. Happy now?"]

27 November, 2009

the prettiest broken girl you've ever seen

Everything has a dark side, including the web. This is nothing new; "to modify Freenet," they say, "is to destroy Freenet." At what price freedom, after all?

Security insiders want to answer that question, by developing technologies that can monitor large networks instantly, and build up so-called "automatic dossiers" of information used to track 'potential threats' down. But who is a potential threat? Everyone, it seems.

I've been working on box art for shapes for someone else, and I forgot I still needed to do the one male shape. Without thinking, I shifted shape, and I was oddly struck by something:

photography,second life

He's not bad in full Geisha makeup.

photography,second life

And he doesn't do badly with the hair and outfit, either. Huh.

Finally, the tenta-coos are released in Black Sands! What are they? Adorably twee Lovecraftian horrors to cuddle. I'm not kidding, one has wee little tentacles and a pacifier! They float behind you, endlessly curious, or you can cuddle them if you really want.

Cutest. Eldritch. Terrors. EVER.

Club "Forbitten" is hiring--they're apparently seeking hosts, bartenders, "Blood dancers" and "Exotic dancers"--I wonder what the difference is. They left an ad on the forums:

About The Club:

Forbitten is a brand new, innovative, different club opening in the heart of The Domain, VITAE RP area. It's inner workings are much like a real life club, because of this our staff has special requirements. Some requirements are negotiable, others are not.


Hmm. If roleplay is my job, am I still banned from roleplay?

1. You MUST be a roleplayer. (Vampire/Werewolf/human/hybrid preferred)

I can do that. Probably can't be a full 'shifter, but I could pull a vamp, I have the skins for it. I don't want to touch them if they have Bloodlines in their sim, but...

2. If you agree to working a shift, you will show up for it. If you CANNOT make it you will let staff know.

Standard. They want people to let them know at least twelve hours in advance, preferably twenty-four, so fine, that works.

3. Absolutely NO out of character (ooc) drama is tolerated. Please leave it at the door.
-=- THIS APPLIES TO PATRONS AND STAFF ALIKE. THERE ARE NO EXCEPTIONS.

I understand the breakdown between in character and out of character, thanks. But just OOC drama alone, or OOC anything?

4. Your account must be over 4 weeks old.

Yeah, I got this. I think a 2006 decant date qualifies.

5. You MUST be able to read, write, and understand English.

I got this, too.

6. HAVE FUN!!!

-=- We want the staff of Forbitten to be happy people, at least about working here. If you have any concerns, issues, or otherwise at anytime, please write a note card and send it immediately to Elskede Paine (Owner) AND the manager. No concern or issue is unimportant.


Which is neat to hear, but wau. No concern is unimportant? And I still don't know the difference between "Blood dancers" and "Exotic dancers". Guess I should go find out.

24 November, 2009

you can arm yourself, alarm yourself but there's nowhere you can run

Nomnivore!

Pardon.

Apparently there's a gnome thing in Left 4 Dead, the first version. Not wanting to be outdone, I guess, there's a gnome in the spin-off, as well. Being as this is the internet, someone captured the whole jarring adventure for posterity.

Out of the mouths of MMORPG: "...if you're anxiously watching for the next big thing to come around and grab your attention, what you might actually be doing is anxiously looking for an escape from the game that you're currently playing."

It's a list of five ways to know when you're just not into your MMO anymore, but I think it applies equally well to virtual worlds. Second Life in particular, all things considered, and that passage above reflects what many of us feel right now: if all we're doing is sitting around hoping for the perfect combination of Blue Mars and Sims Online to stroll by, so we can get OUT of Second Life...kids, we are just marking time.

And Eloh Elliot cements the issue for "reasonable proposals" from the Lindens.

(This entry's good, too: "It's biblical: Colossus Linden keeps saying 'flood' as if he's building an ark." Hee! And she has a translation from the Linden on the Roadmap article.)

So the saga of parcel-switching continues: no nibbles yet on the parcel for sale in Penzance, but now two offers on potential land to move too.

Oh, for great wealth--I'm more than slightly tempted to invest in both.

In other news, Mininova is restricting its content distribution to existing torrents only, by order of a Dutch court. While they are considering an appeal, they are surprised that the court did not find in their favor, due to a few factors:

The court did not agree with Brein on all demands. Specifically, it ruled that Mininova does not infringe copyright and neighboring rights. The court also found Mininova can not be expected to remove files that are “reasonably likely” [to] refer to infringing material.

Remarkably, the verdict does not give any consideration to the fact that Mininova has developed a content filter for Brein, nor to the cooperation between Mininova and other organizations of rights holders. This surprises Mininova, because it has always stressed the importance of cooperation.

The main reason people go to Mininova over more known torrent providers like Pirate Bay is simple: Mininova checks their files for viruses and riders, and in general, content found there can be trusted to be clean, and safe within reason. This case was important because, while they did engage in content creation in terms of offering company-generated Torrent files, they were very conscious of the large number of lines already drawn, in their homelands and abroad, in terms of operation. Everything they created, they argued, was not infringing, and while (as a file hosting service) they received content that could be considered infringing, they did develop a working filter system that weeded out the worst offenders.

As stated, they haven't decided yet whether they're going forward with an appeal, but they were shocked by the verdict--especially when the courts ruled that their actions, according to Dutch law, were not copyright-infringing.

In yet other news, the job search continues to be dismal. I got involved with something odd last night called Earn2Life. Located in Vargas, they offer a HUD that basically consists of five separate steps.

Step One:
Get HUD from machine.

This was easy--find machine; click machine; get HUD.

Step Two:
Attach HUD to...well, HUD.

This was where things started to get complex, and honestly, it's a step many newcomers would be utterly baffled by. The signs past this point kept saying, Push the Select Offer button, and I'm looking at the equivalent of a sine wave in invisi-prims.

Then I realized it was tilted at an angle, upside down, and facing the wrong way. A quick bit of editing--and a bit of detaching, and reattaching to the center position, as it detached my AO--and I was ready to start.

Step Three:
Push the Select Offer button, wait for acknowledgement, and start earning Lindens.

This was where it got complex as well. From what people have been saying in the group chat, sometimes the HUD gets stuck on one address. Sometimes it won't port people at all. Always, it turns off after each offer completion, and I'm nearly 100% sure it's designed to do that.

I kept at it, though. Going from business center to home rental place, making sure to "wander" (their idea of "wandering" is just not to stop moving, and sometimes when the offer's only in someone's small shop/office, it's hard to fully "explore" without walking off the parcel--in which case the HUD beeps at you in a loud and distressing fashion) until my minute or two minutes or four minutes were up--then acknowledging the receipt of funds.

I couldn't draw out funds without signing up for an account online; okay, I bought the bullet and did that, assigning a password that was very far from my SL password just in case. I couldn't draw out funds earned until I hit L$10; to be safe, I waited until I hit L$20. Then I turned the HUD on and pressed "Withdraw".

I was told to go to the site; I went to the site; I was told I had successfully drawn out L$20; and I would receive it on the 29th of November, four days hence.

I'll keep the HUD around, but effectively, that terminated my involvement with them. I'll likely ditch the group on the 30th.

The other option I'm considering is Blue Moon Bordello. Now, I know, 'Bordello' in the title is rather a tip-off, and the fact that the parcel is on Adult land is not exactly subtle. But they say they're hiring dancers as well as escorts, which makes me think the escorting is optional.

I may be wrong, there.

BASIC REQUIREMENTS:
1. You must be an adult, preferably over 21 at least.


Right. Fine there...

2. Your avatar must be of good enough quality to blend in with our Club

I think I can do that, yes...

3. You must be able to communicate effectively in written English and type reasonably well. Translators are not adequate.

LOL I kin speke an typ rel gud!

*coughs* Sorry. Moving on...

4. The Blue Moon only hires adult human females. That means that we do not hire people who appear as anything else.

...

How....species-ist. And this is also why I didn't talk to them last night, as I was wandering the grid in golden neko form. But, okay, fine, it's a common prohibition, and it's not like I don't have human skins. I'm fine there.

5. You must agree not to work for other clubs or work as a freelancer while employed [at] The Blue Moon.

I guess that's fair--but further perusal of their rules makes this both better and worse. Their Conditions and Rules notecard says that dancers, strippers and escorts must have the Blue Moon mentioned in their Profile and their Profile Picks....and man, I'm out of room as it is. I can't be adding every single business I wander through! I don't have the space!

6. The Blue Moon is designed as a vintage Bordello. We encourage that all girls dress and act accordingly - think 1950s and before - then add a dash of steampunk and a hint of 21st Century glam.


........

The...hell?

So what they want is...

This: media

plus this: steampunk,media

plus apparently...this? media

Huh?

(The above images, btw, left to right: Copyright Al Buell, all rights reserved; found on the Boy of Bow blog, no idea where xie found it, though the picture itself credits "misspixie93"; and all rights reserved to Jean-Claude Forest, originator of the "Barbarella" character, and to Paramount Pictures, current holders of the copyright for the 1968 film version.)

I don't quite get it; maybe it's an SL thing.

I'll think it over and keep looking, but the job market at present is rather dismal. I just want something to do to earn Lindens that doesn't take up a Picks slot. Is this so hard?

12 October, 2009

by salt. by dice. by meal. by mice. by dough of cakes. by sacrificial fire.

"Across both public and private sectors what readers experienced as "management" was pervasively problematic. It just wasn't what it said on the tin. Wherever they looked, readers found a glaring discrepancy between "official" and "unofficial" versions, between talk and walk.

The talk was empowerment, shared destiny, pulling together: the walk was increasing work intensity, tight performance management, risk offloaded on to the individual. The talk was flat organisations: the reality, centralisation and a yawning divide between other ranks, required to minimise their demands for the greater good, and a remote officer class whose rewards had to soar to motivate them to do their job. Employees were the most valuable asset - until costs had to be cut."

~Simon Caulkin, "Farewell, with a last word on the blunder years"

This is the single largest problem we're seeing, and it's become universal in terms of employment, world-wide. (I'd almost be willing to say grid-wide, as well, but it's still mostly a real-world issue.)

"A woman working for a regional newspaper group in the UK as an editor was informed that she would become editor of 3 newspapers, and was then told she now had to manage 5 newspapers. Feeling overwhelmed she visited her GP, who told her that she was so stressed (read stuck to the ceiling) she was proscribed to take at least 4 weeks sick leave. Her boss on learning of her GP’s advice warned her that [any time] taken off would be a career changing decision – read don’t bother coming back. Nice."
~SMLXL, Modern Life is Rubbish

In France, this is particularly problematic. France Telecom, Renault and Peugeot, among other firms, have been exceptionally hard-hit by corporate suicides--that is, people who choose to take their own lives at work.

The national suicide rate, in fact, for France, is just a bit under 15% for every 100,000 people. Paired with that, one in every ten French citizens claim antidepressant medication and treatment on their company's health-care plans.

"Of course, institutional stupidity and failure to take responsibility are characteristic of all top-down organisations - in fact, they're two sides of the same coin. Hence the reductio ad absurdum, also charted here, of gleaming hi-tech organisations too witless to stop themselves auto-destructing."
~Simon Caulkin, "Farewell, with a last word on the blunder years"

People are quickly starting to realize, world-wide, that the experience of their grandparents--staying in one company for life, retiring from that firm when the time came--just isn't happening. Even bright talented people shift around, and usually not by will--they move when they feel forced to, when they feel they aren't being heeded, when they feel that their job will be axed soon--and many of them don't move soon enough, ending up on the cutting room floor, the casualty of yet another spate of downsizing.

"'Who needs me?' is a question of character which suffers a radical challenge in modern capitalism. The system radiates indifference. It does so in terms of the outcomes of human striving, as in winner-take-all markets, where there is little connection between risk and reward. It radiates indifference in the organization of absence of trust, where there is no reason to be needed. And it does so through reengineering of institutions in which people are treated as disposable. Such practices obviously and brutally diminish the sense of mattering as a person, of being necessary to others."
~Richard Sennett, "The Corrosion of Character"

This, I feel, has begun to leak into Second Life--that concept that any avatar is replaceable, that any worker can be fired or hired, with no better recommendation than 'well, they look good on paper'--or even worse, 'their av looked okay'.

It's very dismissive, this concept, and I think especially in virtual worlds, there needs to be an honest pause to consider. Is this person helping my company? should be the first question. Is this person doing what I need them to do? If not, then obviously, let them go--but it must be said, most employment options in Second Life lack multiple facets. Each employer in general wants only one thing. There is little room for multi-tasking, let along use of broadened skill sets.

"Perhaps the collapse of orthodoxy will make it easier to salute and cherish such exceptions: companies that refuse the dominant logic, such as John Lewis; academics who risk their careers by engaging with big issues (would Darwin, Freud and Marx be employable in today's universities?); courageous public-sector managers who find ways of circumventing the draconian targets regime to do what they know to be right."
~Simon Caulkin, "Farewell, with a last word on the blunder years"

The more I go on, the more I realize I had an exceptional opportunity, beginning my life on the grid. I started in a company that just wanted pretty decorations--and truly, that's all I was. But I went from there to being a person in my own right; after all, in how many strip clubs did the patrons discuss Catholic hierarchical structure and Latin declensions with the dancers??

More than that, as I grew in experience, my employers gave me more responsibility. By the end of it I was an estate manager on the land; I was the club manager; I was responsible for new hires. I was not just pretty pixels on a pole.

Though, to be fair, that is also completely illustrative of the problem. With little raise in what they paid me, I was expected to be entertainment, human resources, event coordination, management and security. Were there others on staff to do these things? Yes, but I was rather the all-in-one.

And when the club stopped being profitable, in terms of tier and time invested, the owner of the club closed it, rather than work out how to make it profitable again.

"People are both clinging on to their current jobs, however much they dislike them, and dreaming of moving when the economy improves. This is taking a toll on both short-term productivity and long-term competitiveness: the people most likely to move when things look up are high-flyers who feel that their talents are being ignored.

The most obvious reason for the rise in unhappiness is the recession, which is destroying jobs at a startling rate and spreading anxiety throughout the workforce. But the recession is also highlighting longer-term problems. Unhappiness seems to be particularly common in car companies, which suffer from global overcapacity, and telecoms companies, which are being buffeted by a technological revolution. In a survey of its workers in 2008, France Telecom found that two-thirds of them reported being “stressed out” and a sixth reported being in “distress”.

~from the print edition of The Economist, author and date unknown

There's a lot of stress and tension, both on the grid and in the world. How will I pay rent? is a common question in both places. How do I keep my job is another--even jobs that, in any world, the person doesn't particularly want. There is a creeping dread growing by leaps and bounds at the thought of being in the job market again--even young fresh minds, brilliant and inventive, dread the thought of the interview process. And once the job is acquired, the rent issue is stabilized, the keeping that job question keeps back--will they still pay me? and when do I get axed? are two questions that should never be asked, in terms of a worker employed--and yet they, too, are common everyday questions now.

"A more subtle problem lies in the mixed messages that companies send about loyalty and commitment. Many firms—particularly successful ones—demand extraordinary dedication from their employees. (Microsoft, according to an old joke, offers flexitime: “You can work any 18-hour shift that you want.”) Some provide perks that are intended to make the office feel like a second home. But companies also reserve the right to trim their workforce at the first sign of trouble. Most employees understand that their firms do not feel much responsibility to protect jobs. But they nevertheless find it wrenching to leave a post that has consumed so much of their lives."
~from the print edition of The Economist, author and date unknown

We are creatures of loyalty. Pixel-brained or flesh, we equate work with home, employment with caretaking, workplace with family. It takes a lot of dissatisfaction and ill treatment to get the average person into the mindset of escape-from, over endure-for.

In this economy, worldwide, we are now seeing the results of that dissatisfaction and ill treatment writ large. Middle management is effective, and causes the largest problems; but upper management is no longer content with anything that doesn't improve the bottom line. And the bottom line is now profit. The bottom line is now paying off the shareholders. The bottom line says people are disposable, any cog for any gear, and just as easily slotted in somewhere else, regardless of where their talents lie.

"Management seems to have responded to the new stresses in the world's increasing globalization by passing them along to the workers, and operating under an ersatz 'we're all in this together' bonhomie while they sharpen the knives for the next round of cutting. This leads to a growing alienation of people from their work, and from those that they work with."
~Stowe Boyd, from the /message blog

If the people over you are more interested in preserving the bottom line, and the people next to you are keeping their heads down to avoid being shoved over themselves, there is no job loyalty. There is no security in position. There is only when does the bad thing happen? And who gets attacked this time?

To create anything of value in the world beyond, we have to recognize the worlds we're creating virtually. To improve anything in the real world, we have to improve it on the grid, first.

If we can't do that, then we have no hope left.

(Regardless of what any particular reader may think, this had nothing to do with recent employment situations in my life. I just found it a fascinating series of articles.)

I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

So...it's been a while. Ms. Kalia Anatine sent this out today: 🌙 A gentle reminder from your neighborhood witch: The tricksters ar...