and anyway I've got no place to go

This terrifies me. Just literally, makes my soul quail in abject writhing terror. I'm not kidding.

I used to dance with Summer Seale, I never thought she was capable of such skin-crawling dread-inducing madness in prim form.

First night in Second Life? Man, I just wandered around and walked places, and worried about the duck walk. This guy invades skyscrapers and walks through walls.

Speaking of Dr. Who--sorta--this is a brief glimpse of some twisted alternate-reality paradise. Where there are lots of sharp things skittering in the bushes.

Who play drums.

On synthesizers.

If you're a fan of the show's music, go listen. Everything you'll hear there is downloadable.

Credit goes to Edward, who can't remember where he found it, and thought it was me. But since it's not, then someone else has to take the credit for telling him.

DeepThink moves on. I could make some comment here about "rats" and "sinking ship", but it might be considered tacky.

And I have to find time to go see this exhibit.

So, where are we on the state of things? Lady Pearse, Christine McAllister, is leaving Steelhead. I should ask why. Things in Babbage are still haywire--I think Miss Burton's trial just tied up, no idea what the verdict was, whether for or against Dr. Obolensky.

Caledon now has no non-Mature sims, a direct result of the idiocy of the Labs in not only forming Ursula in the first place, but changing the definitions of words they already had in place.

And I still haven't finished the dress for Kira-Kira, and there's only a month and a half left of SLRFL in the first place, and in the second...well, is there a rock under the rock I'm currently hiding under? Because that'd be good, yeah.

My only excuse is that I kept finishing a design, and then pushing it aside as possible offensive/triggering/tacky, or just plain thinking it wasn't good enough, flat out.

Here's the thing. I'm not the greatest clothing designer. I do okay, but most of the things I design I end up wearing, and the more I learn, the closer I come to throwing out the old designs anyway. I'm proud of a few things--I want to redesign the alphabet block texture set, but I like the way it came out. I'm very proud of the bloodcell dress and the house slippers. (I'm insanely proud of the house slippers, I do admit.)

Everything else? I think it's mad hubris I'm offering it for sale in the first place.

The other large problem is my design sense. I do have one, it's just...deeply odd. I make clockwork puns, for--! I mean, really! My one claim to fame, barring just being my own strange surreal self, is making clockwork citrus. And when I got into clothing design? I made dresses out of rust textures. I got involved with major splatter. I'm still happier if the frock has major damage, or blood splashed liberally, or sun-burnt patches...I'm working on a set of patchwork strips for a skirt, and I may never sell it, because it's just too odd.

And, not the least of everything, is...while I adore the Victorian and Edwardian eras, and have adored wearing medieval clear down to flapper-era attire...I don't design Victorian well. There are those that do--Hatpins to Silver Rose, M'Lady Designs to Silent Sparrow--but I've always felt subversive, at best, and flagrantly in violation, at worst, even showing my designs in Caledon. And you're far more likely to catch me in Bare Rose or Pixeldolls, depending.

But. I have a new source for textures, those I don't make on my own, and she does incredible, incredible work. (Visit Twisted Thorn Textures if you want to see what she does up close--and the sim's just fun to wander in.) I'm learning more on what goes where and how it goes there and what it does once it's there, and this is no bad thing.

And I've done a lot of research, on shading, on shaping, on what dress silhouettes were, year to year. It may take a while to entirely filter through, from thought to frock, but it will.

And late or not, part of the RFL or not, I am putting this dress out, if I have to put it out gratis--because I wasn't making it for personal gain, anyway.

This will be the last Kartiny release. Come June or July, I'm reinventing. I want to take a stab at actually developing a business logo, a business plan, and just about everything is going to be taken down. I'll see what's left, and see if I want to be a dabbler in textures, or a dabbler in prims, or...turn the entire store over to Fawkes and move on.

I'll know, in time. I'm watching the section of me that's watching me decide. I've nearly decided on a new business name, after all.