Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts

21 February, 2021

and someone asked me once, where do we go when we arrive?

Two more days passed before I could run to the KittyCats store and get more vitamins for the sick ones. But I did that!

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And here's little Athena, well and fed and sleeping like a furry angel.

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Here's Cleopatra before she got better--she was the first one I rezzed out and saw was sick, so she's been the ghost behind my eyes all this time.

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And one dose later, she's now had a little milk, and is sleeping soundly. So relieved. SO, so relieved.

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And little Enoch was even up and exploring!

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One of his toys apparently poofs out holographic butterflies, and he was having fun batting at them.

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And is this not the most adorable blep you've ever seen? I don't want to play favorites, but...he's just so cute.

And they're all out of danger...for now, at least. Because there is that rift that opened in the back room...

13 August, 2016

when meaning's gone from every word

(( RP mode...sort of. ))



There are times in life where recovery demands change. I went to hide in the shadow spaces, to breathe in the fae lands, as diminished as they are. I needed to know the face I'd grown accustomed to seeing in the mirrors of Sakura was not the one I wore at present.



I feel frail, fragile, weak. And it is the greatest struggle not to pull my tattered shields around me, strap on what armor I have left, and pretend I'm stronger than I am. It is so very difficult to remain open to wisdom from the universe, to the things I need to hear. The things I would not hear if I was armored, shielded, shut down.



I recognize so few of the fae now. The Unseelie Court scattered to the four winds, and to this day I do not know where. Imprisoned as I was on the forbidden isle, I think I forgot how to even ask after those I'd known when I broke free, or was released, from the Queen's punishment.



But even the edges of the fae lands are healing. And my walls are currently paper-thin, ribbons of their former sun-baked clay and solid stone. I will heal, even if I have to retreat again and again, make myself believe anew that I am more than what I pretend to be. More, greater, a deeper presence, a stronger core.



And yes, if my gates are held open, there will be weak points in my structure. If I close those off, everything off, become a smooth and perfect sphere, no doors, no windows...well, what has no way in, also has no way out. And I no longer wish to lock myself away from the whole of the world. Just those parts of it that are currently hurting me.



In the meantime, the shadows will comfort me, when I cannot stand the light. I will reinforce what I need to, recover, remold myself yet again as I move through the glowing waters that were formerly home. I will heal and find comfort again in the mask I wear, for it is teaching me what I need to know about the human world, again. And I will seal off the access points I need to, to survive. Rebuild my walls, to grow strong again. And reemerge whole enough to continue.

After all, it won't be the first time.

30 June, 2016

eyes wide shut, unopened



And I cannot speak, I cannot speak, there are no words to say...

...and...that's really where we stand. I'm not even sure there's a reasonable summation. So...I suppose I won't keep you posted?

Eventually.

Or not.

27 June, 2016

we'd move from the shadows of the wall

Precise cuts. Deliberate wounding. Never arm someone with the weapons to use against you, it's a rule. But I've never been able to function that way.



There was contention. I felt there was an argument to come. And I pushed. Knowing the likely outcome, I pushed. And then...

"Goodbye."




I've never had a rational relationship to that word. I can hear it if I know it means for right now. I can hear it if it's just leavetaking, temporary, no sense of permanence.

I cannot deal with it if I think it relates to an ending. Because it becomes permanence in that moment, for me.




I'm too literal. It's been a fault for a while. But I'd also passed out heavy arms, precision rounds, scattered mines to deploy in my wake. I wasn't the one who armed them. That was never my choice.





Over. It's over. It's over. And I hadn't figured out what it was in the first place...

22 May, 2016

is there a chance you may change your mind? or are we ashes and wine?

"The writing drought is over, at least for now."
Or, at least, until life went boom again, both on and offworld, my aetheric engine's main drive died, one of my RL partners had elbow surgery, and various other things went wrong or sideways.

And then...something else happened.

Hagalaz ring from Silver Achemy Jewelry on Etsy.
Hagalaz, the coming storm. Hagalaz represents the hailstorm, damaging, brutal force, but force that sweeps away what must be destroyed in order to bring fertility and life to new things. It will bring life, it will be a boon to creativity and growth, but it will do so through sudden, inevitable, unavoidable devastation.

This particular ring is through Silver Alchemy Jewelry, and retails for $57.55, exclusive of shipping.
I'm not going to go into that right now. I'm still not sure if I have the words to say what went wrong, and why. But I'm now dealing with the aftermath, a bare handful of days later. I'm picking up from there.

[00:48] XXXXXXXXXX: Well, if you want, you could come over here. I will promise to be a good boy.

There's heavier anonymity on this one than others, even though those who know me and the person in question will know to whom this refers.

[00:51] Emilly Orr: I'm...not sure.

Because so much went wrong, so fast, and I'm still unsettled, disturbed, uneasy in all communications.

[00:51] XXXXXXXXXX: It's okay. I leave it up to you, but I'd like the company.
[00:52] Emilly Orr: I know. And I know you have good intentions, now.
[00:52] XXXXXXXXXX: Yeah, I know, monster.
[00:52] XXXXXXXXXX: But I will do my best.
[00:52] Emilly Orr: Not monster.


Eihwaz, the Yew.
Eihwaz is the yew tree, the spiritual center force. In a strong sense, it represents spiritual support, but it is natural support--the support of the tree's strength, the wind's power, the urge to grow and develop. It is not a rune to invoke lightly--it will protect and defend, but it will not discriminate between self and other, enemy and friend.

This particular piece of art came from Znachenie site, but I don't know if the art is original with them.
There's an unfortunate tendency with this person to polarize everything. It's not just okay or not okay; it's pure good or pure evil. Women don't have issues with him; they apparently hate him utterly, or are repulsed or disgusted by him. He doesn't make mistakes; instead, he's evil and a monster who causes nothing but devastating harm.

This is not the best way to live, but it's not my mind. I thought I was a black and white thinker, but he's proven to me that my world is a shifting, multi-hued monochromatic palette of opportunities and subtle inflections.

[00:54] XXXXXXXXXX: I will try not to be, at least.
[00:54] XXXXXXXXXX: Anyway, up to you.
[00:56] Emilly Orr thinks, then shrugs.
[00:57] Emilly Orr: Okay. Let's try a port.


At this point, he offered a port. I took it. My shoulders were tense, I was fighting to keep my breathing even. It wasn't easy.

After some initial conversation, we settled into single seats on a lounge.

Hand-forged Uruz pendant from Wulflund Jewelry.
Uruz represents strength and power, but without subtlety. This is male energy, determined to get what it wants, at any cost. Uruz is the bull, the aurochs, capable of quiet strength as well as rampaging, destructive power.

This particular pendant is sold through Wulflund Jewelry, for $12.13 exclusive of shipping.
[01:05] XXXXXXXXXX leans over and puts his head against your shoulder.
[01:08] XXXXXXXXXX: I still feel a little weird overall.
[01:09] Emilly Orr: You've taken a few upsets, it's understandable.
[01:09] XXXXXXXXXX reaches over and very gently touches your hair.
[01:09] XXXXXXXXXX: Yeah, but all I can do is try to keep going.
[01:09] XXXXXXXXXX: And try to work on my disguise.
[01:10] Emilly Orr: Or behavior.
[01:10] XXXXXXXXXX pulls his hand back.
[01:10] Emilly Orr shakes her head, smiling gently.
[01:11] Emilly Orr: I didn't mean for those two to be connected.

Even so, I tensed again when he touched my hair.

[01:11] XXXXXXXXXX: Oh. Okay.
[01:11] XXXXXXXXXX is trying to be careful.
[01:11] Emilly Orr: I know.

This is when pauses, at least on my side, started to get long, because...I was trying to figure out how to word things, without sounding like a complete coward, but also without sounding like everything was just fine now, and we were perfect. Because we're far, far from perfect at this point.

[01:13] XXXXXXXXXX: I like being near you.
[01:13] Emilly Orr smiles
[01:17] XXXXXXXXXX: I like your hair like that, but I like your hair down, too.
[01:18] Emilly Orr: I could change it, if you like.
[01:18] XXXXXXXXXX: I wouldn't mind, but I want you to be comfortable.

I found some hair that was, more or less, the color I'd been wearing before, just not in spiraled curls pinned into a low bun, but a drape of hair over one shoulder.

[01:22] XXXXXXXXXX: I know I've taken your hair down before.
[01:23] XXXXXXXXXX reaches over, gently, and slides his fingers into your hair.
[01:23] Emilly Orr shivers.
[01:23] Emilly Orr: You have.
[01:23] XXXXXXXXXX: I like making you shiver. As long as it's a good shiver.
[01:28] XXXXXXXXXX watches your face.
[01:28] Emilly Orr was deciding if it was a good shiver or not.
[01:29] XXXXXXXXXX: What did you come up with?
[01:29] Emilly Orr thinks it was, but she still feels...easily startled.


Thursa talisman from Menglod in Sweden.

Thursa, Thurisaz, the Thorn. This is the needle that sticks, the claw that slices, to release chaos, destruction, and fearful pain. This is one of the strongest protection runes, but any shield with Thursa in its center will, like Hagalaz, strike both the user and the enemy. Unlike Hagalaz' storm, which passes, Thursa strikes until there is nothing and no one left to strike against. If the querent pulls this rune, they need to face their most primal fears, or abandon what gives them safety and strike out on unknown paths.

This is a talisman made by Menglod, made of black reindeer leather and lacing, with an added magpie feather. It retails for $36.97, exclusive of shipping.
I still do. I'd given him the analogy in an earlier conversation, of thinking about coaxing a wild animal out of the woods, to feed out of his hand. How one has to be careful, how movements too rushed, or too large, can startle the animal away. He said then, he understood. Even now, I don't think he does.

[01:29] XXXXXXXXXX: I understand.
[01:29] XXXXXXXXXX puts a finger under your chin and tilts your face up towards him.
[01:30] Emilly Orr watches you, but doesn't resist.


What? No. What? Wait. Why am I not resisting? I'm not thinking I'm ready for...

[01:31] XXXXXXXXXX pauses, and brushes his lips very gently against yours, then pulls back.
[01:32] Emilly Orr shivers again, leaning in taking a bit to realize you've pulled back, and inhales slowly.


...okay, that wasn't terrible, I guess. Still a bit too close...

[01:32] XXXXXXXXXX cups your cheek with his hand, watching your eyes, not moving any more.
[01:33] Emilly Orr: What do you want, [XXXXXXXXXX]?
[01:33] XXXXXXXXXX: Right now? I want to kiss you.
[01:34] Emilly Orr breathes, then nods slowly.

So, there was kissing, which I wasn't entirely sure I wanted. I'm not including it because I'm writing this pretty much off-the-cuff, trying to figure things out.

[01:39] XXXXXXXXXX pulls back after a few more moments, looking at your face, his arm curling gently around your waist.
[01:41] Emilly Orr leans in against you, tenses a bit, breathes through it, and relaxes again.
[01:41] XXXXXXXXXX frowns a little, and pulls back.
[01:42] Emilly Orr tilts her head, watching you.
[01:42] XXXXXXXXXX: Too much?


Hell, yes. FAR too much. Ask me again in a few more days. Ask me again in a week. Ask me again in a friggin' month, now is too soon, so yes. Too much. TOO MUCH.

But:

[01:43] Emilly Orr: Conflicting impulses.

was what I said. Cue aggrieved sigh at self.

Nauthiz run from TheWitchesMark on Etsy.

Nauthiz represents emergency, crisis, immediate problems that need to be addressed. Crisis situations can pull our focus tight, can make us capable to climb mountains, organize search parties, fight back and win...or they can trigger past experiences, and cripple us, until we refocus our intentions and choose to move forward.

Force and pressure are contained in Nauthiz. Force can break us, or it can make us stronger. But Nauthiz is the rune of pressure points, pulling out where we are weak to teach us how to be strong.

This version of the rune is made out of oxidized copper, and is sold by The Witches' Mark for $45.00 exclusive of shipping.
[01:43] XXXXXXXXXX takes your hand. "Tell me about them?"
[01:44] Emilly Orr holds your hand. "I know, if I say no, and you don't accept it, I'll just log off. No discussion, at least not for tonight. And I know you didn't bring me here for sex, or...at least, I don't think you did."
[01:44] XXXXXXXXXX: Say no to what?
[01:45] Emilly Orr looks up, meets your eyes. "But...part of me wants to fall back into pattern. Climb into your lap and...And I don't know if that's a good impulse, or a bad one."
[01:45] Emilly Orr: Hmm?
[01:45] Emilly Orr: Well, anything, really. I mean, not 'want to go outside', or something trivial, I mean, if you pull me into a sexual pose, and I say no, and you don't stop.
[01:46] XXXXXXXXXX looks straight into your eyes. "I won't lie. I'd love to be inside you, right now.. But no, it's not why I brought you here."
[01:47] Emilly Orr nods. She knows. She felt it in the kiss.
[01:48] XXXXXXXXXX: I sure as hell hope you did, or I'm doing it wrong.
[01:48] Emilly Orr smiles.


His problem is, again, polarized thinking. He's either terrifyingly insecure, or massively arrogant. I could have dealt easier with insecurity.

[01:49] XXXXXXXXXX: I brought you here for us to sit together and try to work on building a little comfort back.
[01:49] XXXXXXXXXX: I won't pull you into a sex pose. Is a cuddle okay, though?
[01:49] Emilly Orr thinks about it, then nods.
[01:50] Emilly Orr rests against you.
[01:50] XXXXXXXXXX leans in and kisses you again, slowly and warmly.
[01:51] Emilly Orr cups your cheek, kissing you, softer brush of her lips to yours.

Falling into old patterns. Falling into old patterns while feeling this startled, this unsettled. It wasn't good.

It was also approaching two AM, though. While I had been going to bed at three, I've been trying to adjust to sleeping at two, because of the new schedule the others in my RL life want to keep. I explained this carefully.

[02:01] XXXXXXXXXX: Aha.
[02:01] XXXXXXXXXX: Well, I'd like it if you'd stay a while longer, but I napped and you probably didn't.
[02:02] Emilly Orr: Not a lot, no. And today saw us rising at nine.
[02:02] XXXXXXXXXX: Okay. Do you need to go, then?
[02:04] Emilly Orr thinks a bit, and then nods.
[02:04] Emilly Orr: Probably.
[02:04] XXXXXXXXXX: Okay.
[02:04] Emilly Orr: But I didn't have to run.
[02:04] XXXXXXXXXX: That's progress?
[02:06] Emilly Orr: I think so.

I still think so. Because I was prepared to run. I was expecting to have to run. Hells, I expected I'd have to just hit "log off" and hope I remembered on the morrow to log back in in my home base, not his cabin.

[02:06] XXXXXXXXXX: Good, then.
[02:06] XXXXXXXXXX will let you go, but first:
[02:07] XXXXXXXXXX slides his fingers into your hair and kisses you again, but this time he does it as hard as he's wanted to all night long, his mouth pressing strongly against your own.

NO BAD BAD THING NO NO NO STOP STOP NOW--

But, as usual:

[02:08] Emilly Orr tenses on your lap, but kisses you, tongue licking the roof of your mouth, backs of her fingers drawing along the side of your neck.
[02:08] XXXXXXXXXX: Mmmmm. That's a nice way to end the night.


Not if he knew what I'd been thinking. Tensing, but then relaxing, because it's easier to move away with a relaxed body; and pulling the backs of my fingers along his neck, because I know how easy it is for me to change into cat claws and tear his throat out.

All of which brings me back to no, no, it wasn't a nice way to end the night. But, now, since I didn't say much of this aloud, he's going to think he's done well towards fixing things, and it's just a matter of time before everything goes back to the way it was.

And for my part, I'm now thinking perhaps I need to take a week away from SL, because if I'm not at the keys, then I can't respond to what he has to say.

Conflicting impulses? We're now past that. I think we're now in conflicting realities.

24 December, 2015

I wanna ride the waves down in Galveston when the hurricanes blow in

We are truly living in the future. I mean, show of hands, people--who expected a functional transparent metal to be developed in our lifetimes? I know my hand isn't raised, there!

There are three holiday freebies here: a snowman with a paper hat, an angel wreath, and a pile of mesh logs with animations for holiday fires/fireplaces (to be set in front of, et cetera, or near the campire, fireplace, what-have-you).

And there's a bit of chat I want to share, but it's out of my usual comfort zone; not in terms of what is said, but, because of who says it, I want to keep one name intact. SO, there's less anonymizing on this one, and if that's a problem, do let me know!
[19:25] Krampus (orvan.taurus): Oy, it's seriously weird when the Manifestation of Holiday Evil is the *reasonable* one in a 'religious' discussion in a venue where there should not BE one. (Yes, I am claiming to be the sane one. THAT'S how messed up it is.)
I gotta agree there. Now, I've always found Mssr. Taurus to be affable and polite, but I also know he can be quite stern when dealing with miscreants, so...
[19:25] Mxxx Cxxxxx: errmm
[19:26] Lxxxxx Mxxxxxxx: Yipes
[19:27] Krampus (orvan.taurus): "If you wish to believe in Santa Claus, or Jesus, or Mohammad, or Krampus or Zeus or Philo T. Farnsworth, fine. If not, also fine. It's the insistence that others also do as you do that is a problem."
[19:28] Pxxxxxx Mxxxxxxxx: Thank you, Krampus.
[19:28] Krampus (orvan.taurus): There's a line few would expect.
Maybe, but it's a good, solid line. We need more folks with this ethics set.
[19:29] Mxxx Cxxxxx: i don't care what anyone believes or doesn't believe as long as they aren't insistent its the "right" way
[19:30] Mxxx Cxxxxx: basically what Krampus said. :)
[19:32]Pxxxxxx Mxxxxxxxx: Actually, it wasn't that long ago, albeit in a different group, a bunch of people tried to tell me I was wrong for being an atheist. I didn't push my beliefs on them beyond telling them what they were when asked... and then I discussed for as long as I felt the discussion was respectful, then asked twice that the discussion end when I felt the respect had dissipated, and finally told everyone I was closing the window, and did. :/ I wasn't telling anyone not to believe. I don't think it's my place to do any such thing. And neither is it anyone's place to tell me to believe, or what that belief should be.
[19:33] Mxxx Cxxxxx huggles [Pxxxxxx] knowing that conversation first hand.
[19:33] Pxxxxxx Mxxxxxxxx: *hugs*
Yeah, wau, that sounds like it was really difficult to get through. All sympathies.
[19:34] Mxxx Cxxxxx: they were over the top with that, especially considering their beliefs.
[19:34] Txxxxxx Rxxxxxxx: What someone else believes is none of my business, nor does it change how I feel about a person. As long as they are good people, I like them :)
[19:34] Pxxxxxx Mxxxxxxxx: And good people like you, too, [Txx].
[19:34] Txxxxxx Rxxxxxxx: Yay!
[19:36] Myst Cobalt paints [Txx's] claws with red glittery polish
[19:36] Pxxxxxx Mxxxxxxxx: o.o
[19:36] Pxxxxxx Mxxxxxxxx: OMG.
[19:37] Mxxx Cxxxxx: wha?
[19:37] Pxxxxxx Mxxxxxxxx: Someone should make furry claws that accept fingernail appliers.
SOMEONE GET ON THIS, NOW!
[19:37] Txxxxxx Rxxxxxxx stares at the sparklies on her claws totally mesmerized
[19:38] Mxxx Cxxxxx: i agree [NPxxxxxx].
[19:39] Txxxx Rxxxxxxx: Hell yeah. It doesn't matter what people profess to believe in if they don't actually practice what they preach.
[19:39] Mxxx Cxxxxx: unless there are and i don't know about it
Exactly. Whatever we believe, whatever we hold true, we should hold true to it, or what's the point? A religion of convenience serves no one.
[19:41] Mxxx Cxxxxx: ugh i hope this wind dies down by tomorrow. really dont feel like getting blown off the road while driving
[19:42] Pxxxxxx Mxxxxxxxx: So, if someone professes to believe in Cthulhu, but makes no efforts to wake him from his eternal slumber, that's a problem?
Well, technically...
[19:42] Mxxx Cxxxxx: lol
[19:42] Krampus (orvan.taurus): "Do I start the engine... or just throw it into neutral and hoist sail?"
[19:42] Mxxx Cxxxxx: I probably could with the way it's blowing around now
[19:43] Pxxxxxx Mxxxxxxxx: Oh god... anyplace hoisting a sail would work around here, it would throw you ACROSS the road and into a tree.
Yeah, weather's been bad all over. Be careful out there, and try to keep your interactions with religious zealots of ALL stripes to a minimum.

And if you can't just show them this. I guarantee, they'll shut right up.

18 June, 2015

it's too late to apologize


to reach the sky
we have to be willing to leave the ground


but the sky is so far away
and we are so small


we are afraid
both to succeed and to fail
and the contradictions are killing us







04 February, 2014

trouble is a friend

So, I'm planning some back-end fill-ins for old content (none of it hugely relevant at this point, just drafts that are aging in queue) behind this one, but there's been a ton of things happening of late, and I've been hermitting, so...right. Time to get to it.

First up: Mr. Ciaran Laval noticed that LL changed their land bot allowances, from "allowed" to "not". As he points out, five years ago this would have been both relevant and helpful, but as things stand now...what, exactly, is the point? Unless--as he also points out--the Lab's planning to also reorganize tier in some fashion.

Sort of in the same vein--that of unsettling changes, at least--there was a thread on SL Universe querying if the Lab had a policy on requesting tax information. Which wouldn't be that big a deal, save for the way they handled it--or rather, aggressively and ridiculously mishandled it. First was the utter lack of communication, followed by wrong information given out by Lab employees who apparently weren't informed of the correct procedures, and--to my mind most significant--an utter refusal to change their policies when illegally employed.

Now, the lack of contact we are unfortunately accustomed to, along with the spreading of misinformation by people who should have better accesses to correct info than those not in the rank and file. But what started out as a reasonable conversation about terminology and correct interpretation began to slowly go south. The first hints of trouble were seen in Malkavyn Eldritch's post of January 18th:
First sale of the year (over 600.00 under 20,000.00) we now have received the support ticket and it is our first. (We wondered why the deposit hadn't processed in over a week)

[...] LL has failed (as usual) to provide relevant information to the residents in a timely manner. This shouldn't be a shock to anyone.
It really shouldn't, and that might have been the end of it, just an unfortunate delay, but...Kat Fetisov was next, on the 20th:
I got one of these the other day when I tried to cash out - for the record I'm nowhere near 200 withdrawals or $20,000 a year.
Then Charli a day later:
I have received the email as well. Who is Tommy Linden really? This is a matter of real life information and to be requesting such information without even providing their real name is just ridiculous.
Kat Fetisov received resolution...sort of...maybe?...on the same day:
I've had a reply from the Lab about this. It's left me a little puzzled.

They said that I don't need an ITIN or an EIN, just my UK National Insurance number (that's the UK's tax reference code for an individual; the equivalent of a US SSN). This is good news because it makes everything nice and simple but it leaves me puzzled because every other US based business platform (yeah, please forgive the pretentiousness of that term - you know what I mean; Amazon direct publishing, all the other e-book publishers, stock image sites etc) that asks users to file a W8 variant require an ITIN or EIN or they'll withhold US taxes from your payouts.

I hope that LL are in proper compliance because what seemed a big problem earlier today has now vanished. I can't help but feel that acquiring an EIN hasn't been a wasted effort since I can't know how things will change in future. The IRS is coming down harder and harder on this kind of commerce, so having an EIN in reserve gives me some reassurance I'll be able to deal with any stricter requirements that may come along later.
And then things got really worrying on the 24th. This was Desmond Shang, chiming in with his responses from the Lab:
I've made more than pocket change with my SL estate, and as such, I've always routed it through my S Corporation.

Why? Because you can't have, say, greater than 50,000 a year come into your personal bank account without paying appropriate taxes. I put in work to build my SL business, and that means wage taxes. Which I have paid. Just try telling the IRS that you had money rain out of the sky for no reason and see what happens ~ that's most certainly a bad, bad idea.

So I get a W9 request thursday. It's the sort of thing I get all the time in the course of other business, before SL even accepted residents. Except they doctored up the form horribly, and locked it on Individual / Sole Proprietor, and SSN through this weird electronic form overlay. I use an S Corporation with an EIN.

No big deal except they say if I don't fill out THAT form, locked to the wrong tax information fields ~ my account goes on hold in 30 days.
Let me restate some things from this, because I feel they're vaguely important.
  • For the purposes of estate management, Des has filed as an S corporation.
  • As he is an employee of this corporation (he's also the owner, which is another reason to incorporate; it makes things very neat and structured for purposes of taxation and filing), he pays himself wages from this estate-based income.
  • As such, it's fairly standard to fill out incorporated deduction forms (which he's done, both as employee and owner), as well as standard for companies and incorporated entities to interact with him as another incorporated entity.
  • Linden Lab did not do this. In fact, they doctored the form before sending it to restrict his ability to fill it out properly; they insisted that he fill it out as a private citizen, not an incorporated entity (or even employee of same).
  • Legally, Des cannot fill out this form.
  • If Des does not fill out this form, his account goes on hold, and they withhold wages until he properly fills it out--which, again, he cannot do as provided by the Lab.
This is insane. Why would any company mess with their paying clients this way? And "Because they're the Lab" is no longer a sufficient answer.

And let's not forget the next bit of Des' section of the thread:
I'm very upset with:

1) the incompetency of trying to force me to fill out a W9 incorrectly,

2) the fact I can't get anyone on the phone for something that should be a 5 minute thing

3) the fact that they are threatening to put my account on hold over it.
Yeah. Let me restate that bit, too, because it's important: A major estate owner, paying operational capital directly to Linden Lab, cannot get anyone on the phone to answer him. And if they're doing it to Des, they're doing it to everyone else. So forget regular users of SL trying to get information--when the people essentially providing working capital to the company can't get answers, we're in very deep. Drowning, not waving time.

While Des (and presumably other businesses and estate owners) were trying to figure out what waqs going on, on the 29th Karlin James developed an all-new, easily resolved problem:
I started to process my credit on January 13th and asked for USD1200 to be sent to my PayPal account. This is only the 3rd time I have withdrawn money from SL in 4 years. After 6 business days had passed I gave billing a call and asked if there were any delays in making payments. I was told that I would be paid that day as Wednesdays were when LL do their mass pay outs.

Well it didn't arrive in my account that day or the day after. But I did receive a case number and a request to fill out a form. It was the W8 for me because I am from the UK. I did that immediately and sent a photo of my passport and of my bank statement showing my address. That was a week ago.

[...] Just to add to that, I called a couple more times this week to ask to speak to a supervisor. I called during LL office hours but both times I was told there was no supervisor available and then got this recorded message "This call has ended, please hang up".
Joy.

Passages bolded for emphasis above; and because James hadn't reached either internally stated limit, it's wholly unknown why the Lab decided to dick them around like this.

So now we're near the end of the month. New program, or least the Lab's new compliance with a program which may have gone into play (at least in the US) in 2010; still not sure on that score. Bumpy couple of weeks, but everything worked out, right? Well...

Here's eku Zhong on the 29th:
I cash out pretty regularly (monthly).. last week when cashout should have gone through I got the W8-BEN form and filled in and sent in photo ID last Friday.
Still waiting.. ticket is still IN PROGRESS.
Evil String on the 29th:
I got my ticket on friday. Everything filled up in less than 1 hour ( I had everything prepared), documentation uploaded. Still nothing.
Desmond Shang, same day:
Still waiting here; they have enough info to ID me seven ways to Sunday by now. I don't care if they are understaffed on the effort. Staff up. It's not like they couldn't see this coming for at least a decade in advance.
Now, very late on the 29th, both Zhong and String had their payment issues resolved; Charli and Nan still hadn't been contacted; Min Barzane, on the 31st, meanwhile, still hadn't heard anything:
Monday 20th requested cashout to paypall...friday 24th got suport request for aditional info ,tax stuff(ID,online form,the works)and normaly they stopped my cashout ... filled and sent ewerything inside 1 hr...today is 31st and still waiting for LL to move their lazy asses and let my money go!
And a few hours after both Des and Mm. Barzane posted that, they were mysteriously resolved. Someone reading along at the Lab?

And on February 4th, Eboni Khan added two more cents to the discussion:
My 1099-K arrived today from Linden Research. Not one single USD number on it matches my Paypal 1099-K. Hello double reporting!
Which I find highly suspicious on the part of the Lab. Shouldn't the numbers match? And there are still folks waiting for funds to be received, and all of this right at the turn of the month, when many of us are also asked to pay rent. The hell, Linden Lab. The friggin' hell, what is going on?

And does it have anything to do with Rod Humble leaving the Lab?

16 June, 2013

you fight and you fuse, oh, you're a wild little bruise

Honestly, I think I just need to make a 'linkspam' category, and have done with it.

But here goes another round of wandering the net.

Photographer Jon Crispin has been taking photographs in a storage room of a former insane asylum. Why? Because in that storage room were discovered suitcases--four hundred in all. The room was discovered in 1995, and it's taken this long for Crispin to gain access to the room and its contents.

Can computer memory get faster and more stable? Two scientists--corresponding between Berkeley and Singapore--think so. And it's based on the science behind solar panels, and bismuth ferrite. Nanoferric technology seems to be finally coming into its own.

So, there's been this huge controversy brewing inside the SFWA Bulletin. I'm linking Seanan McGuire's commentary first, because she outlines the controversy very well, but I'd also recommend (as she did), reading some of Jim Hines' collected posts--none of which are anonymous, which is the main point Malzberg and Resnick seem to be fixated upon.

There's tons of really good commentary abounding--these are all authors or scriptwriters, keep in mind--but if you want another really good, really basic overview of the situation, writer Ursula Vernon tries to define the current controversy and decides if it's akin to an abusive relationship, or trying to housebreak a puppy.

(Also, see what I did there, Malzberg and Resnick? "Author" Ursula Vernon. Not "lady author" Ursula Vernon. See how easy that was?)

Also, if you scroll down to the bottom of this edition of Radish Reviews' 'Linkspam' post (one of many reasons I should just give up and adopt the term), you'll find actual pictured and scanned copies of the direct print-out to what Malzberg and Resnick said. Which is an interesting technique for later "but that's not what I said!" bleating.

Also, while this is really, really, really long, I recommend it for reading, and possibly bookmarking to read again later. It's the best essay on why real women hate fictional women, and why that leads to hating other real women, that I've ever read.

Not that anyone particularly needs it after that, but just in case you wandered off and read everything and did get mad--which is perfectly justifiable--here's a short list of calming websites. You're welcome.

I really dislike the writers (of more than this article) calling the stone carvings on the Washington National Cathedral "gargoyles". Put plainly, most of them are grotesques. What's the difference? Gargoyles are carved to carry water from the roof. Grotesques are just sculptures on the edges. But the fact that more and more stonecarvers are electing to carve representations of modern life--that, I think is pretty neat. And it will be just as baffling four hundred years from now, when those carvings likely need renovation.

Always puzzle your descendants. It keeps them on their toes.

28 June, 2012

I can't love you this much, baby, and love you from afar

(from the loss album, adapted from An Echo of the Divine; a better view of the statue,
which is outside the Art Institute in Chicago, was taken by James Birbeck and can be bought as a print.)

when will I see you again?
you left with no goodbye
not a single word was said
no final kiss to seal anything
I had no idea of the state we were in


(from the loss album, and both adapted and reduced in size from a shot
taken by Brechtbug of a statue in Woodlawn Cemetary.)

I know I have a fickle heart
and a bitterness, and a wandering eye
and a heaviness in my head

(from the loss album; adapted from image found in the Alchemy of Grief entry on the
Raven Essences blog)

but don't you remember?
don't you remember
the reason you loved me before?
baby, please remember me, once more


(from the loss album; adapted from an illustration on the Health News blog)

when was the last time
you thought of me?
oh, have you completely erased me from your memory?
'cos I often think about where I went wrong
and the more I do, the less I know


(from the loss album; original by Callee MacAulay from Toronto, Canada, and seen here)

but I know I have a fickle heart
and a bitterness, and a wandering eye
and a heaviness in my head


(from the loss album; adapted from the Waclaw Wantuch original, seen in the
book Akt. All Rights Reserved.)

but don't you remember?
don't you remember
the reason you loved me before?
baby, please remember me, once more


(from the loss album; adapted from unknown original, but seen on
the Loving Awareness blog)

I gave you the space so you could breathe
and I kept my distance so you would be free
and hope that you find the missing piece
to bring you back to me


(from the loss album; adapted from unknown original, but seen on
the Test-Mistake blog)

why don't you remember?
don't you remember
the reason you loved me before?
baby, please remember me once more


(from the loss album; adapted from original photograph found here
about Laura Ford's "Weeping Girls" series in Edinburgh, Scotland. More information can be found here)

when will I see you again?

(from the loss album; photographer and model unknown, but adapted from image seen
on the Najafi blog)

(Song is Adele's Don't You Remember.)

25 April, 2012

pools of brown and seas of red, and demons in your pocket (part II)

Good news for Minecraft players! Unfortunately, Silk Touch as an enchantment is frustratingly difficult to get at times. But at least, should you acquire the rare and exotic Silk Touch pick, you can now acquire glass panes and ice, as in days of yore.

And this is a beautiful statement. I'm very nearly tempted to link it in my profile somewhere, save...I'm not doing the dating thing at present. (Be advised that while the treatise deals with sexuality, it is not sexually explicit; how'ver, since it comes from a sex-positive blog, it is counted as NSFW.)

Now, then, picking up where we left off...

(from the bizarre album)

Neck tattoos and sewn-over nipples? But of course. Because both of those things just scream kawaii as a concept.

There are kawaii tattoos. But these? Aren't them, again.

(from the bizarre album)

WTF IS THIS DOING AT THE KAWAII FAIR?!? NO I'M NOT APOLOGIZING FOR YELLING. WTF IS THIS?!?!

(from the bizarre album)

No. No no NO no no no no. Not only not kawaii but bad piercings to boot!

(from the bizarre album)

Here's how bad it is--when May's Soul--far more well-known for her Gorean bondgirl attire that does not shrink from revealed flesh all over--turns out a comfortable, cute hoodie? The Kawaii Fair is seriously skewed.

(from the bizarre album)

And I'm not even saying you have to restrict it to PG items only: this, for example, is perfectly well done. It's a great little sleep set on an appropriate avi with perfect hair, perfect nails, and--barring the heavy black eyeliner, which seems to be SL-default for adults of all genders, as well as children--perfectly appropriate makeup.

It can be done, so what was wrong with nearly everyone else?!?

(from the bizarre album)

And, as I said in the last entry, these aren't bad outfits. In the right mood, I'd wear two out of three of them (the center pantsuit gets a pass, just for me personally, because I'm not comfortable with the plunge). They've got good shading, they look well-made, and I admire the conceit of the white go-go boots with the pink strap-halter outfit.

But again--kawaii, they're not, so why are they at the Fair??

(from the bizarre album)

And this is where I left the Fair and stormed off in loathing and disgust.

All of the above were found at the Kawaii Fair. If you want to see for yourselves, there's the link, it runs until Aprille 30th. Me, I'm so done, because that was ridiculous.

07 April, 2012

there was a wave over the house, there was fear choked in my mouth

Another day, another spam offer, but the one sent originally to this entry made an offer of "Gratis video nedladdning".

And that's when my brain fell out. What, pray tell, is "nedladdning"? Wikipedia to the rescue: "Nedladdning" is Swedish for "downloading". So...services that offer free video downloads? Um, yay?

Except I don't recognize any of the services mentioned, I don't trust them, and I'm not going to help a spammer spam people on my blog. Pfffft.

Another came in tagged to this entry (which, weirdly, has received more spam comments over the course of its existence than any other single entry, hands down) in Dutch:
Yahoo achieved without time and currently the entire "cost is still very perfect inevitably accompanies the proxy fight," the exact company said. Yet each of our board determined that the majority of other nominees were more qualified than Mr. Loeb on a huge director, Yahoo said. [Knockoff Belgian Louis Vuitton url redacted]

EU Economic and Monetary Affairs Commissioner Olli Rehn said he was confident the ministers to resolve their disputes on delivering more bailout funding. Speaking yesterday and appear in Saariselkae, Finland, Rehn said officials "will be used for this specific firewalls" [Knockoff Louis Vuitton scarf url redacted]

If they also earthquake tsunami that nuclear power plant accident, the occupants by using their homes as the danger to exist
aeaeae (so so you have to leave the greatest places these products used to live). The use of on the market to live safely, we have clean and handle the key behind radioactive contamination, which is probably almost certainly a formidable task well. [Knockoff Belgian Louis Vuitton url redacted]
My.

So, if I'm parsing this one out correctly:
  • Yahoo recently had a proxy fight on its hands, but won the right to continue operating under the company name, with the current management/ownership intact.
  • It was determined by the ruling board, however, that there were several other candidates who were more capable than Dan Loeb to pile onto a huge director. (The huge director apparently is unnamed.)
  • Buy our knockoff Vuitton stuph.
  • Olli Rehn seems fairly convinced that more bailout funds for the European Union are forthcoming. This will help him in his bid to stack sub-ministers into a massive shield wall around Finland.
  • Buy our knockoff Vuitton stuph.
  • Japanese homes are dangerous after tsunamis, earthquakes, and nuclear plant meltdowns. (Yeah, that's a given.)
  • To continue keeping the market open requires radioactive keys.
  • Unfortunately, even after being cleaned, radioactive keys become a time sink.
  • Buy our knockoff Vuitton stuph.
Did I get it right? Translation is always tricky.

Back to the Marketplace JIRA. This from Josh Susanto again:
Since I know I'm going to get banned anyway (as if the Lindens have nothing better to do right now than go around banning people) I might as well just post my own explanation here and you can decide for yourselves.

If you would all just start standing up and demanding decisive action instead of cowering in fear of bannings and suspensions while the Lindens continue to shuck and jive you out of countless sums of hard-earned money, they would have to do something to straighten out their own contractual end of things. YOU are their bread and butter, and it's time that they started acting like they know it.
While he's not necessarily wrong, I was more interested in the Tribes link. I went and looked. It's essentially an expansion of his "BORKED ITEM" Marketplace listing, but there's a few other cogent points. In his own words:
  1. System failures appearing to be magic box problems immediately following the deployment of mesh to the main grid at the beginning of August 2011 were timed to disrupt a rush in sales of mesh items. Linden maintains that the problem was not related to mesh code, but has been less clear about the timing being mere coincidence. That the magic boxes continued to work just fine when attached to an avatar standing on Linden land suggests no code problem with the magic boxes themselves.
  2. Further experimentation revealed that the problem was also not lag, as boxes also worked well in various heavily lagged sims, when worn as an avatar attachment. The prevailing pattern of observable information was that sims where boxes were advertised as rezzed all seems to have been borked, specifically.
  3. After considering what this incident has in common with the incidents that followed, my current understanding is that an escalation of apparent box malfunction was manufactured in order to produce support for the Direct Delivery program; the next thing on the list after mesh deployment; thus the weird "coincidental" immediacy of apparent box malfunction after mesh deployment.
  4. The idea that these malfunctions can be explained by an increase in sales after the mesh release is not supported by sales figures. In fact there was no increase in sales due to the mesh release; there was a decrease in sales due to the malfunction.
  5. The attempted sneak deployment, I've already mentioned was not only unannounced, but merchants had been deliberately led not to expect it as I have already shown here. The rest of the DD deployments were announced as not to follow as originally planned, but gift orders for the annual birthday peak on 16 September were nonetheless disrupted, and there was some continued impact on merchant utility of listing enhancements, on merchant confidence in listing enhancements, and on the market more generally.
  6. Subsequent code deployments also appear to be calculated to produce the maximum loss of merchant utility per merchant dollar invested by essentially the same means as the chronology targeting of the 14xxxxx borked cluster.
  7. The Next Big Toy that Rodvik and Brooke will announce will be something to facilitate in-world commerce, and it will work flawlessly from Day 1.
So...Rodvik, of course, we all know, but who's Brooke Linden? Casual surfing before parting for egg dyeing (it's Ostara soon, of course we do that) revealed she's currently managing, or co-managing, the Marketplace as a whole...at least, I think. So hard to tell.

But point by point from the above:
  1. If it's accurate that there's no coding problem specifically with the Magic Boxes themselves, can there be a code correlation between the implementation of mesh code on the grid and early Direct Delivery testing? I don't want to go too far into tin-foil hat territory, here, but could the code from one project negatively impact the code from another project on the live grid?
  2. Was the Magic Box system always designed to be used as a specific avatar attachment? If so, what would happen when that avatar wasn't logged into the grid? Were all merchants who reported failures merchants who rezzed their boxes on their land, not wore them as attachments on their person? (Personally, that one can't be true, it just can't. It's ludicrous to believe the Lindens would design a system where the code only worked if worn on the avatar directly.)
  3. The accusation that the Lindens manufactured this problem directly, with intent, is also on the ludicrous side; I'm no fan of Linden management, but even I think that's hardly possible.
  4. Are there any statistics that have been released on actual sales figures, pre- and post-mesh introduction?
  5. Why is there such a focus on September 16th, 2011? Am I missing something? Was there a release of sales figures for that specific day of which I'm unaware?
  6. Where does he get this information from? How can any code be designed to produce the maximum possible loss of income, per merchant, when not all merchants have items in the affected 14xxxx cluster?
  7. In the end, what Susanto seems to be expecting is for the Lindens--specifically in the form of Brooke Linden or Rodvik Linden--to announce that the Marketplace was a failed concept, and they're abandoning it. Concurrently, he also believes that Brooke and Rodvik Linden are working on a super-secret tool that will make in-world sales richer, deeper, and more profitable than Marketplace sales. Supposedly this will also cause a land rush and put more tier fees in Linden pockets.
Personally, I don't think any of these are accurate, in the least, and a lot of them rely on information I just can't find. But we'll see what happens.

07 June, 2011

these tears can never dry, a judgement made can never bend

As we move deeper into June and the death of rashly-laid plans, I had plotted out a potential redux of the erstwhile business, along with a per-day inventory deletion strategy and a nebulous decision to start going to dances and social gatherings again. All that may or may not happen before the end of the year, but this month? Sadly, this month may not be the month for me to inject organization and a social/entrepreneurial reboot into things.

However, something's crawled across the dash that forces all that to the side as being absolutely immaterial. Today, I want to talk about injustice, plain and simple, and a way you can help to ease pain and suffering along the way.

Every year around this time, the folks behind Dare Designs throw a skating party for a cat. (I'm not kidding, it's what they do. His name is Rupert.) It's a chance to get together and party with friends and interesting passers-by, a chance to challenge the physics system in Second Life not to do baffling and lag-inducing things, and of course the chance for Axi Kurmin to strut her stuph as DJ Bronxelf--her first career in SL.

This year, however, things are a little different.

This year, they want to turn Rupert's birthday party into a fundraiser. And they want your help to do it.

Turns out that a band they favor, Lost Signal (the stage name of musician Charles Rehill), has some serious medical debt involved from the recent birth of their son, born six and a half weeks too soon. Unbeknownst to them, literally minutes after he was born, his section of their insurance lapsed.

Think of this for a moment. You were there as your wife gave birth early, and you're scared, sure, and you're afraid for her and your child, but you are humbly, deeply grateful that the system is in place to care for him until he's strong enough to care for himself. You have a home, you have a job, you are providing for your family and paying the sometimes outrageous insurance fees (in their case, close to a thousand a month to retain COBRA coverage) that entails...but it's okay, because you are covered, and what's more important, that precious small life is covered, and is allowed to grow, and to grow stronger.

Only later does the horror set in, that every rush of breath, every drip of saline, every warmed blanket, every coo of every nurse who checked his vitals and counted his toes and tucked him in and kept him safe and functioning...came at thousands of dollars per hour.

They were lied to, plain and simple. And they're trying to fight it. But in the meantime, they're staggering under this sudden, savage, and wholly unpardonable debt. This is not equivalent to the cost of a new luxury car, or four years of college, or even a starter house in a good neighborhood.

They're being asked to pay $225,000.00. As Axi said, that's not a typo. That's what their hospital expects them to pay, because their coverage was gone nearly from the moment he was born. A quarter of a million dollars...and there is no justice, none in any world, where that kind of financial demand is anything less than abusive extortion.

There's something so insanely frustrating to me that every time this country gets close to a rational health care system, everyone who's covered stands up and freaks out. People, we get it, you don't want your rates to go up, dear gods, no. But think this through--keep killing nationalized health care, and we continue to stagger under suicidally high bills. And there's no reason for this, just no reason at all. Worse are the morons who say there's no reason for nationally supported health care, and then cite increasingly stupid arguments in support of that untenable position.

What about the fact that healthier people live longer, and thus can work longer? What about the fact that sick people take more sick days and are less productive? What about the fact that sick people who know they can just go to their doctors will be more relaxed about their potential illness, and potentially heal from it faster and easier, than people who are desperate to avoid going to the emergency room one more time for everything from bronchitis to cancer, and thus get sicker before they're seen?

And this is a child...What was their alternative? Seriously, now. Should they have ever had to let the thought of letting Eric die cross their minds, simply because it would be less financially devastating? Should any parent ever have to think that? And let's be very clear, here--very few of anyone reading this, or even me writing it, knows the principals involved personally--but I know this, to the heart and bone of me: the single greatest cause of relationships imploding is financial. If Rehill and his wife make it to the other side intact, together, and still able to breathe, it will be a fucking miracle.

I want to see that happen. So yes--help if you can. As a fist raised against insurance lies; as a thread of support from one human to another; as Rehill's wife Kristine says, anything will help, even a single dollar. They're begging.

And I, who've never met them, who've never heard their music before today, I'm begging too. You'll notice the widget that ties directly in to their ChipIn account on the sidebar. Because this is the heart and soul of wrong, this is something that should band us together against all differences, this is a societal plea to make things better, since the people who should have done so to start with won't.

On June 15th, you can help them out in world, too. There'll be more details coming on the Dare Designs blog, I'm sure, closer to the day.

(Just from a musical standpoint, if you've never heard Lost signal, they're worth a listen for any fan of electronic music of any stripe. To me, they're similar in tone to VNV Nation. Compare Lost Signal's Frozen, for example, to Further from VNV, or to Regret from Assemblage 23--who, interestingly, was part of producing some of Lost Signal's work. Some have called Lost Signal's work "futurepop", but I don't think that's accurate. I don't know that I'd agree with "pop" as an appellation for any of it, because most of Rehill's work plays with themes of immobility and strain, pain and loss, worry and resignation--and always with that deep, moving electronic thrum driving the music forward. It's good dance music, it's good music to fuel contemplation, and it's even good to write blog entries to. As it happens.)

06 November, 2010

and I don't remember why I came

white label on the backseat
glows an artificial green
I crave a midnight something
I crave, and something hunts me down


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(In Minecraft, pigs are arborial! This also taught me that leaves would support my weight, as well. Now in one of my worlds, I have a treehouse.)

I'm scaring everybody
I'm wearing everybody down


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(One night, preparing for a bit of deep exploration in the Catacombs, I heard this odd...thupping sound. Like someone slapping a piece of raw liver against a kitchen counter. I carefully rounded the corner and...saw my first Slime.

(Slimes are unusual in Minecraft in that they don't need patches of shadow to spawn, they just need to be deep enough. Deep enough, Slimes will spawn. And they come in three sizes. This one? Was a regular sized one. When I attacked it, it split into four small sized ones. Imagine what happens when a huge slime shlups along.)


white label on the backseat
and something bends me over, down
I crave an empty lifestyle
I crave the very loudest sound


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(And then I decided to build a giant tree. I named it Llyr. It doesn't entirely work, but it is a solid enclosure of wood, and inside, are narrow beams of stone and glass to hold up a glass ceiling up above the leaves.)

I'm chasing everybody
I'm shaking everybody down...
do you hear the loudest sound?
and you and me in the echo?


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(I have decided, even though they need a hefty amount of planks to build, I like signs. They're functional and enormously descriptive.)

white label on the backseat
and something warm across my lap
I never bitched at anyone
I never asked for my heart back


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(Even in a completely cubist reality, there are still sights which remain impressive. Lava flows are one of them. Deadly, absolutely; but also beautiful.)

I'm loving everybody
and hating everyone I see--


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(Did I mention I like signs? This was the first chamber where I dug all the way to the lowest level. The all-black square seen in the picture is my game's version of adminium, the unmineable substance. It cannot be blown up, dug out, or moved in any way; it is the lowest level possible to attain in the game.

(Also, note the glass cube I'm holding on the right side of the larger image; in my game, glass isn't blue and silver, it's black and white. You can alter the game if you want to; the programmer allows it.)

do you still remember me?
floating out on the echo...?


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(There are sights in any virtual world that feel, to me, like 'home'. The strength of the response varies; some part of me will always think of Rivula as my home in Second Life, for instance, though Caledon Morgaine comes in a close second.

(But this was the first place I ever build in Minecraft that felt like home to me. And strangest of all, it was the third home I built, and the one least equipped to actually be a home.)


Today marks the day I bought Minecraft. I haven't been playing a hacked copy, precisely; I've been playing the copy downloaded the day the servers crashed, and Notch threw the game free for a couple weeks. I only play it offline and only in single player.

Now? I can choose to play on the public servers if I want. Or still keep playing offline. My choice, my rules, for the most part. And I'm supporting innovation and creativity, and the spirit of play. No bad thing there, even if the Euros-to-dollars conversion rate went up.

(None of that has anything to do with this post, or the song.)


(Lyrics from Kristen Hersh's song Echo.)

25 October, 2010

some bullets in the back, and some scars on the skin (part II)

And now, part two of the Impromptu Question and Answer Rant. (If you missed the first part, earlier, this will help you catch up.)

6. Anhedonic has never been ARed for any reason, and--somehow--equates being mentioned on the wee blog as having been reported for abuse or misconduct to the Lindens.

(Answer: Now you're just high. ...Pardon me, let me take that back. I think Anhedonic is getting ever so slightly overwrought by these emotional proceedings. While I don't have an open-door policy on which residents I report for abuse or other issues, neither have I made a secret of ARing certain people now and again. But, pushing beyond that--because I truly think it's not relevant--there are two problems with this statement. First, I have no way of knowing whether it's true or not. And no one else does, either, including Anhedonic, because the beauty of the AR process is that it's not a problem until Linden Labs verifies it as a problem. Xie could have had a hundred ARs filed on xir that never saw the light of day because the Labs internally decided those ARs were groundless. And, barring that, even if Anhedonic had zero ARs through the Labs themselves, no one on the grid has the right to complain about those designs unless xie deliberately kyped someone else's designs.

(In fact, the only individuals who could complain--namely, Twentieth Century Fox, as the copyright holder of record for the Avatar movie rights--probably don't even have Second Life on the radar, and that's likely a good thing for everyone involved. How'ver, to make this point clear--if Anhedonic did receive a cease and desist order from Twentieth Century Fox, it still wouldn't be an abuse report. This point, I feel, is null and void.)

7. The term 'Na'vi' is a fair use term, and is not under copyright by the U.S. Library of Congress.

b>(Answer: This was hard to track down, but let me take this sidewise because the explanation is important. According to the Publishing Law Center, while specific individual characters in a copyrighted--or trademarked--work might not be specifically mentioned by name or by character description in the application for copyright [or trademark], the fact that they originate within a protected work means they are also copyrighted. Which is fine, I suppose, for copyright provisions, as those will expire only seventy years after the date of James Cameron's death. I suppose Anhedonic could gleefully wait it out.

(Unfortunately, we're also dealing with trademark law, here. Avatar as a movie, and all intellectual properties rising out of that work , which would include the characters, character designs, plus specific character and place names--are trademarked. And--is everyone paying attention?--Trademarks never expire. Ever. As long as the fees are paid, the trademark exists.

(So no, I did not find anything that specifically states without question that "Na'vi" is a copyrighted term--through the U.S. Library of Congress or elsewhere. How'ver, that doesn't matter, because Avatar is both copyrighted and trademarked, and the provisions of those laws mean that everything connected to Avatar--"Na'vi", "Neytiri", "Pandora", and all the other character and place names, and the appearance of all characters--is copyrighted, as well as being protected by trademark. So, Anhedonic--and everyone else--is in violation of Twentieth Century Fox's trademark provisions for Avatar as well as infringing Twentieth Century Fox's copyright provisions on the film.

(And this is just a fun read. But I digress.)

8. If I--or, one assumes, any casual observer--looks at Anhedonic's skins, and compare them to those from the film Avatar, I would find they are not the same. Thus, they are not infringing material.

(Answer: This is a specious argument. By the provisions of both trademark and copyright law, it doesn't matter if I give it away or sell it; if it looks enough like the original, that an observer might conceivably be misled, I am most likely in violation of these laws, once it reaches the court level. [I'm still in violation, it just has to go to court to become specific case law.] The same holds true for any other designer--Anhedonic included.

(But let's carry this out, since this seems to be a major point of contention. And, since preservation of anonymity is so desired, this is pretty much a scattershot grouping of many skins on the grid, currently, contrasted with shots from the film Avatar for comparison. One or more of these shots will be Anhedonic's; the rest aren't.

A comparison of SL-based Na'vi versus film Na'vi.

(Now. This is here just for the surface comparison. If you want to see it larger, feel free to click the smaller version, but trust me on this--it won't be that much clearer. What this cobble was intended to convey is that, by and large, people are doing a really great job at reproducing Na'vi avatars on Second Life. This is part of the problem. Any of these, when casually skimmed by a non-invested party, could be reasonably assumed to be at least bending, if not actually violating, legal trademark--in this case, Twentieth Century Fox's legal trademark.

(Is every single line reproduced accurately, each hide pattern, glow and dapple marked in place, on all of these, and all the others I didn't include? No, of course not. But it doesn't have to be. Avatar as a movie is both under copyright and trademark. This means that everything in the movie is, in part and whole, also under copyright and trademark

(Furthermore, even if they were radically different in look--which they're not--Anhedonic and all the others are confusing the issue by using search terms, and/or outright naming their items, as "Na'vi", or "Complete Avatar Avatars" or using ancillary terms like "Pandora", the name of the world the Na'vi live on in the film. A reasonable case could be made without even trying hard, here, that by appropriating trademarked terms and pairing it with trademarked appearance--aka, Na'vi skins for Second Life--there is at least trademark dilution going on, if not outright violation. This point? Is absolutely, utterly wrong.)

9. The word 'Avatar' is not copyrighted as a sole term.

(Answer: No, it's not. How'ver, the word "Avatar" used in conjunction with blue-skinned cat people, the word Na'vi, the word "Pandora", or use of the full phrase "James Cameron's Avatar"...is under trademark. And remember, trademark protections never go away as long as someone's paying for them. There are businesses in England that have been under trademark for more than three hundred years. There are businesses in Eastern Europe that have been in continual operation, with the same protected logo design, since the 1600s, even though trademark law has changed radically since then, domestically and internationally.

(Besides which, Anhedonic rarely uses "Avatar" anyway. Xie tends to use "Na'vi". And "Na'vi" is both a copyrighted and a trademarked term; in casual conversation, there are no penalties, but if a business seeks to use the term without obtaining redistribution permissions from Twentieth Century Fox, that is both trademark violation and copyright infringement.)

Essentially, what all this in these two entries boil down to, short form: Anhedonic, I've removed your name from That Entry after this entry publishes. I don't expect you to read through both of these, though, to find out, because I don't think you're that bright. And I can say that with a straight face because you honestly thought that merely spitting out buzzwords like 'fair use' and 'fan art' would convince me you were in the right.

You claim you did your homework before doing this? Then you got an F on that assignment once you handed it in, didn't you? Let's go over this again for the slow kids:
  • If you make a striped blue-skinned alien and call it "Na'vi" or write on the ad or in the Marketplace blurb that it's "inspired by" Avatar...you are violating Twentieth Century Fox's trademark, and infringing their content (less so in the latter category, though even the innocuous phrase "inspired by" got one designer banned from SL for over a week).
  • The fact that you haven't been ARed or had your Marketplace listings bounced means nothing. Linden Labs is fighting, very hard, to retain its 'safe harbor' status currently. What that means is that someone else has to notice and tell them, 'Hey, that's mine! Stop them from selling that!" At which point, they can officially notice, and send out reprimands and/or remove the content.
  • 'Fair use' doesn't apply in the least here; copyright law, while at times subjective and needlessly overwritten, only truly applies when the work in question is intended for educational purposes, constructive critique or review, or extended scholarship. None of these apply in your case.
Everyone on the same page now? Grand. I'm getting on with my life.

it's just your shadow on the floor

(This section was written on July 11th...) Great. Sat myself down today after oversleeping, and told myself sternly I was not going to log...